be free, be happy, be peaceful

May all find the teacher within to guide oneself towards unconditional love and peace

Tuesday, May 21, 2019

By-products of the thinking mind

Due to the function of the physical body processing all the physical inputs, there are some by-products (waste products), such as pleasant/unpleasant sensations, sweat, carbon dioxide, dead skin/tissues, pee and shit, and etc.

Similarly, upon the thinking mind processing all the mind inputs, there are also by-products, such as egoism, all kinds of impurity, emotions, feelings, actions, reactions and the consequences of action/reaction, and so on.

It doesn't matter whether it's the physical body and its by-products, or it's the mind and its by-products, they all are impermanent and selfless. And they are not 'I'.

Learn to be aware of the impermanent changes of the physical body and its by-products as well as the impermanent thinking mind and its by-products (all the mental/emotional modifications/activities), without attachment, identification, craving/aversion, judgment, comparison, or expectation. Allowing all these impermanent and selfless names and forms to be there as they are, arising and passing away.

Due to the function of the physical body, the body processes the food/liquid after eating/drinking, while the by-products of that, of sweat/pee/shit being generated has to be 'letting go', and one would just let them go and clean up the sweat/pee/shit and the body by oneself, to maintain personal and public hygiene and cleanliness, to help lower the risk of diseases/illnesses in oneself and others in the surrounding environment. More importantly, when someone is sweating, peeing or shitting, one doesn't need anyone being there accompanying/watching/listening or to help to clean up the waste products and the body, unless it's a small infant/child or adult that is physically dependent on others for handling such matters. And there's nothing wrong if someone wants to ask help from others for handling such matters, even when one is capable to handle it by oneself.

Similarly, due to the function of the thinking mind, the thinking mind processes all the mind inputs, while the by-products of that, of actions/reactions/emotions/feelings/the consequences of action and reaction being generated that need to be 'letting go'. The mind would just let them go and 'clean up' the mind by itself, to maintain personal and public peace and harmony, to help minimize causing 'disturbs'/'damages' to itself and others in the surrounding space. When the mind is processing all these mental/emotional modifications/activities of the mind (the by-products of the thinking mind), it doesn't need anyone being there accompanying/watching/listening or to help to 'clean up' the mind, unless it's a mind that is mentally/emotionally dependent/disabled, whether due to genetic inheritance, sickness or injury. Though there's nothing wrong if someone wants to ask help from others for dealing with such matters, even when one is capable to deal with it by oneself.

All the food, drinks and oxygen being consumed by the physical body and the by-products of all the sweat, carbon dioxide, pee and shit etc, are not 'I'.

Similarly, all the mind inputs and the by-products of all the mental/emotional modifications/activities, are not 'I'.

There's no 'I' that can be found before/during/after the existence/function of this physical body and the thinking mind.

Infants/children can be trained to be physically independent as they grow up day by day, so does the mind can be trained to be mentally/emotionally independent. Yoga and meditation practice can transform the mind if being done with the correct understanding, perseverance and determination. Unfortunately, most minds are being 'conditioned'/'educated' by the worldly egoistic society to think and believe that all minds (human or living beings) must depend on 'something/someone else' mentally/emotionally. Quite many yoga practitioners/teachers also think and believe that all human beings need to be there for one another to look after one another mentally/emotionally all the time, or else, it's so sad, terrible, lonely, helpless, joyless and meaningless, if one is being alone by oneself.

Do a self-check on whether the mind is being conditioned/educated to think and believe in certain way, such as, "Being alone, living alone, walking alone, eating alone, doing things alone, or solving problems alone by oneself is so sad, terrible, lonely, helpless, joyless and meaningless." Most minds will say 'yes'. But how true is that? It's not necessarily so. Although people don't necessary have to be alone by oneself, but minds that are mentally/emotionally independent has no problem/difficulty being alone, living alone, walking alone, eating alone, doing things alone, or solving problems alone by oneself, and are happy and peaceful as it is.

Look after this mind, before it's too late where it really needs to depend on others/substances to be able to function/think/behave properly.

Be free.

Sunday, May 19, 2019

Verbal diarrhea?

The yoga and meditation practice are supposed to be quieting the restless outgoing talkative mind. Usually after a complete session of traditional yoga practice or a meditation sitting in silence, the mind would be rendered so quiet that there's nothing to say, or talk, or share, or complain about, especially for the next few hours or so. However, there are some restless minds that are suffering from 'verbal diarrhea' might can't stop talking immediately after the practice session finished, after being restrained from talking during the 2 - 3 hours of yoga practice or 1 - 2 hours of meditation sitting in silence. This is a common behavior (sort of a side-effect) of the restless mind especially after people finish a long silent yoga and/or meditation retreat. Sincere yoga practitioners need to know how to free the mind from 'verbal diarrhea', especially after a long time observing silence.

Yoga practitioners need to be aware of whether their minds are suffering from 'verbal diarrhea', which is a sign of a seriously restless mind.

Meanwhile, there are some people who don't really know/understand about the meaning of yoga and meditation practice which is mainly to silent/quiet the restless outgoing talkative mind, and they would want to engage in social conversation with other people immediately after the 'yoga class' finished, they might feel offended by some people whose minds are in silent mode after the yoga and meditation practice, where they are not interested in engaging in social conversation with anyone, but would rather be isolated from the rest of the people, to be alone, to be 'resting' in the state of quietness for as long as possible.

Those who attend sincere 'yoga retreat' that is about quieting the mind should have an understanding about this, so that they wouldn't feel offended by some people who's minds are in silent mode after the practice, and try not to 'disturb' these minds that are resting in silence during and after the yoga and meditation practice, which is the 'precious' state of mind for sincere yoga and meditation practitioners.

Majority of the people in the society who encourage 'active engagement in conversation or talking with other people' for promoting a 'happier' state of mind or 'better' physical/mental/emotional health, might not understand the greatness of silence, where the mind is free from all kinds of disturbs, unhappiness or suffering, being in the present moment free from desire of craving and aversion, being undisturbed/undetermined by pleasant/unpleasant or agreeable/disagreeable experiences, where people have nothing that they need to be 'talking', 'sharing' or 'complaining' about to other people.

Saturday, May 18, 2019

Be strong and feel empowered?

Many people want to be 'strong' and feel 'empowered', as they think and believe that if they are 'weak' and 'vulnerable', they will be 'belittled' or 'intimidated' by those who are stronger than them, and if they are strong, they won't become a 'target' or 'victim' of other people's 'intimidation/belittling'.

In yoga, one doesn't need to be 'strong' or feel 'empowered' so that one doesn't become a 'target' or 'victim' of what most minds think and believe as a form of 'intimidation/belittling'.

One just needs to stop seeing/thinking/believing/identifying oneself as 'weak' and 'vulnerable' and one is naturally a 'target' or 'victim' of other people's 'intimidation/belittling' that needs to be toughen up and be empowered. One also needs to be free from self-pity as well as expectation or longing for receiving sympathy, empathy, protection, acknowledgement, support, attention, understanding, praise, liking, appreciation, encouragement, or empowerment from others.

It's stop thinking/believing that oneself or 'all human beings' should be treated in certain ways and shouldn't be treated in certain ways, or oneself deserves to be treated in certain ways while doesn't deserve to be treated in certain ways.

If the mind is not free from such thinking/belief/identification of  "I am weak and vulnerable and being a target/victim of other people's intimidation/belittling." then even though other people are not being intimidating/belittling oneself at all, but one will always feel 'intimidated' or 'belittled' by other people's confidence, courage, credibility and straightforwardness, which the perception of being intimidated or belittled is not coming from others, but from within constantly feeling "I am weak and vulnerable and being a target/victim of other people's intimidation/belittling."

Even if other people's action/speech/behavior is truly unpleasant/unreasonable with the intention to intimidate or belittling oneself, one won't be intimidated/belittled by that at all, if oneself is free from the thinking/belief/identification of "I am weak and vulnerable and being a target/victim of other people's intimidation/belittling." and would allow other people to act/speak/behave the way as they are, but one is not determined or disturbed by it. Neither does one need to be 'protected' from it.

One would stop seeing/perceiving 'intimidation/belittling' here and there, but just being aware of people are either being confident, courageous, credible and straightforward as they are which is nothing 'intimidating/belittling', or people are acting/speaking/behaving in the way that reflects their state of mind under the influence of ignorance, egoism, impurities, unhappiness, or suffering. Instead of feeling being a 'target' or 'victim' of other people's intimidation/belittling, one will be compassionate towards other people's unhappiness and suffering.

One will understand that one doesn't need to be 'strong' or feel 'empowered' at all, as the one who feels weak and vulnerable, who is highly sensitive, who is longing for attention and understanding from other people, who has expectation towards other people's treatments towards oneself has to be in certain ways and not to be in certain ways, who thinks oneself deserves certain treatments/reactions and doesn't deserve certain treatments/reactions, who constantly feels intimidated/offended/bullied/victimized/belittled/unattended/unheard/discouraged by other people, who wants to be sympathized, be protected, be heard, be understood, be noticed, be attended, be encouraged, be supported, be liked, be praised, be appreciated and be acknowledged, or who doesn't like to be unnoticed/unattended, unheard, disliked, disagreed with or criticized, is the ego.

Free the mind from this ego.

One will no longer identify oneself as a 'target' or 'victim' of other people's 'intimidation/belittling'. One stops seeing other people's action/speech/behavior that one's mind perceives/recognizes as unpleasant/unreasonable as a form of 'intimidation/belittling', while allowing other people to be free to act/speak/behave the way as they are, to express their unhappiness and suffering in the way that they are, that they know.

Those who understand this, they cannot be disturbed/hurt by other people's 'unpleasant/unreasonable' action/speech/behavior, but they can choose to move away in silence. It's not a weakness to move away in silence towards other people's 'unpleasant/unreasonable' action/speech/behavior, as these people are in suffering/unhappiness, and they don't know how to express their suffering/unhappiness in a less unpleasant/unreasonable way.

Be free.

Friday, May 17, 2019

Broken / complicated relationship involving third party?

Broken/complicated relationship involving third party is not something uncommon nowadays.

There might be different kinds of situation exist in any relationship. It doesn't matter what kind of situation, most people would think and believe and expect that two people should commit themselves to be loyal and faithful towards one another being in a 'committed' relationship, if oneself has no sincerity to be 'committed' and 'faithful' in a relationship, then just don't get into a relationship with anyone, as whether wittingly or unwittingly, oneself will cause 'hurts' to the other person in the relationship with oneself. But in many relationships, two people have love for each other in the beginning, and want to be in a relationship together, but after some time, the 'feeling of love' is less, or is not there anymore, where they don't feel love towards the partner anymore, and either they don't want to be in the relationship anymore, or they would want to look for the 'feeling of love' in other love affairs/relationships with other people.

For example, A and B is in a so called 'committed' relationship, while B is also having an open or secret love affair/relationship with C.

In such relationship that involved 'third party', most people would think that A is the 'victim', while B and C are the 'selfish and immoral' bad people that are hurting A. A should deserved sympathy and support from others, while B and C should be blamed and condemned for being 'selfish and immoral and hurtful'. But for those who understand 'love' and 'relationship', no one is being a 'victim' and no one is being 'selfish/immoral/hurtful' bad people in a broken/complicated relationship.

There's neither right nor wrong in 'love relationship' even if it's 'broken', whether with or without involving third party. It's just a relationship didn't turn out to be the way that most people desire/expect it to be, as well as there's no 'love' in such relationship. And there's nothing wrong if there's no 'love', or an expected relationship is non-existing, or a relationship is discontinued, for any reason.

If there's love in the relationship, the relationship won't be broken/damaged, it's either a relationship that continues or discontinued/came to an end, due to any reason, in peace. If there's love from oneself towards the partner, one will have loving kindness, self-control and decency to not commit in any behavior that would be 'hurtful' to the partner in the relationship with oneself, whether wittingly or unwittingly. Even if there's 'feeling of love' in the relationship in the beginning, and the 'feeling of love' is impermanent, it will change and disappear. But, if there's love, then even though sometimes the 'feeling of love' is less, or not there anymore, one will still be kind to the partner in the relationship with oneself, and would not behave in the way that would be 'hurtful' to the partner, not because of the sense of 'commitment' or 'obligation' towards a 'committed' relationship, but out of loving kindness.

There's nothing wrong either if one feels hurt/disappointed/angry thinking and believing oneself is being 'a victim' of other people's unloving/unfaithful/hurtful/immoral behavior. Everyone has the rights and freedom to feel what they want to feel and react the way that they want to react. But then, one must also understand that if one feels hurt/disappointed/angry, it's because one doesn't really love the partner as he/she is, one only loves one's desire and expectation towards the partner and the relationship has to be in certain ways. One has desire and expectation towards the relationship and the partner to be in certain way, and when things turn out to be not the way that one desires or expects, when one is getting something that one doesn't like, doesn't want and doesn't agree with, and when one is losing what one likes (the relationship and the partner being in certain ways that one desires it to be), or what one likes (the perfect faithful loving partner/relationship) is no longer available, or is 'disturbed', or has changed into something else, that's why one feels hurt/disappointed/angry. It's not because the partner or the relationship is 'bad' and 'wrong' that cause the 'hurts/disappointment/anger' in oneself, but, it's because one doesn't love the partner as he/she is, but only loves what one likes/desires/expects.

It's how everyone/human beings/the untrained egoistic minds react towards 'ungratified desires' of "This is not what I like and want and expect.", or "I am not getting what I like and want, but I'm getting what I don't like and don't want." or "This is something wrong/bad/hurtful/undeserving happening to me."

If there's correct understanding towards 'love' and 'relationship', then there would be no hard/hurtful/bitter feelings where people can let go the relationship in peace, one won't see oneself as 'a victim of the unfaithfulness/betrayal of the partner in a broken relationship' or 'a victim of the intrusion of the lover of one's partner that causes my relationship to be broken'. And there's no blame or condemn towards the partner and the lover that they should be guilty for being 'the selfish bad people that cause this relationship to be broken/damaged'.

This is really nothing to do with whether the partner and his/her lover in the love affair/relationship are being 'selfish', 'unfaithful', 'disloyal', 'immoral', 'bad' and 'wrong', or not. It's about how oneself thinks, understands, feels and reacts being in such situation, where one's partner is involved in a love affair/relationship with another person.

If a person would commit in a love affair/relationship with another person other than the one in a relationship with oneself, whether wittingly or unwittingly, it indicates that this person doesn't really 'love' the partner. He/she loves it's desire for satisfaction. When he/she is not satisfied with his/her partner, when he/she is not getting what it desires/expects from the partner, he/she will be looking for something/someone else to gratify its desire for satisfaction, love, passion, pleasure, interaction, or lust. And that's common 'human's nature', or the normal behavior of the untrained minds under the influence of desires.

Everyone has the rights or freedom whether they want to love anyone, or don't want to love anyone, or stop loving someone, or having too much 'feeling of love' that needs to be shared with many people at the same time, or want to be in many different love affairs/relationships at one time, or whether they are satisfied/dissatisfied being in a 'committed' relationship with somebody.

If one truly loves the partner in the relationship with oneself, one will love this person as he/she is, even if the partner doesn't love oneself, or stop loving oneself, or being 'the god/goddess of love' who needs to 'love' as many people as possible. One doesn't need to be in a relationship with this person, to possess this person to be mine. One doesn't expect this person to be faithful and loyal, or expect the love from this person doesn't change, or won't disappear, or 'should be for me only'. One allows this person to have or don't have the 'feeling of love' for oneself, or stop loving oneself, or doesn't love oneself, or prefer to love and be with someone else. One can let go the person that doesn't love oneself, or let go a relationship that doesn't have 'love' or couldn't continue, in peace, and allow this person to love and be with other people that he/she loves.

One won't feel hurt/disappointed/angry towards the partner who doesn't love oneself or towards the relationship that is not the way that how most people would like it to be. Because if the partner loves oneself, then there's no need any expectation from oneself, without the sense of obligation to be committed and be faithful in a relationship with oneself, but out of loving kindness towards oneself, he/she will have self-control and decency, where he/she will not do anything that would cause 'hurts' or 'damages' to oneself or this relationship, not even behind one's knowledge, regardless of whether there's the 'feeling of love' existing, or not. One would know how to 'keep a respectful distance' with others who have the tendency to 'fall in love' with oneself, as one doesn't need to look for satisfaction in 'love affairs/relationships'.

One cannot expect 'love' from anyone, but allowing others whether to 'love' oneself, or not. One cannot expect how other people should love oneself or behave in a relationship, but allowing others to love us the way as they are. There's no such thing as "Once you love me and being in a 'committed' relationship with me, you will have to be forever faithful and loyal to me, and loving me only." And if, one realizes that the partner doesn't love oneself, one can choose to continue or let go the relationship, in peace, without bitterness. There's neither right nor wrong, either way.

There's even no need of 'forgiveness', if one truly loves the partner as he/she is, even if the partner is being unfaithful, as one is undisturbed/unhurt by the partner's 'unfaithfulness' at all, but would let go of him/her and the relationship. One doesn't feel bad about oneself or thinking that one is not good enough, if the partner doesn't love oneself, if one knows love.

Unfortunately, many people couldn't let go in peace, and be disturbed by hard/hurtful/bitter/angry feelings that doesn't help to make things better, and might do things that hurt oneself or the partner and the people whom the partner loves.

There's nothing wrong if one realizes that oneself doesn't love the partner, and one should be honest and straightforward to let this person knows that "I don't love you." or "I don't feel love for you." or "I don't want to be with you in a relationship." or "I want to be with someone else." This honesty won't hurt, if people are matured enough to understand 'love' and 'relationship'. But it would cause deeper 'hurts/disappointment/anger/hatred' by being untruthful to oneself and the partner, pretending that one loves the partner very much, but in truth, one doesn't love the partner, and one won't be satisfied being with that partner, and would try to find satisfaction in some other love affairs/relationships with other lovers. People who are matured enough would let go the person whom they love very much to be with the people whom this person loves, in peace. That's love.

When two people don't hurt one another out of dissatisfaction/disappointment/anger/hurts, then even though there's no 'feeling of love' from one or both of them, or they are not in a relationship, that's love. Where/what is love, if one or two people keep hurting each other out of feeling of hurts/anger/disappointment being in a relationship that is not the way that they like it to be?

If people are not matured enough to accept 'honesty' or 'the truth' in peace, when people whom they think they love very much are being honest and straightforward telling them that "I don't love you." or "I don't want to be in a relationship with you." or "I want to love and be with someone else.", then it's their own responsibility if they don't like that honesty or the truth, and react with feeling hurt/disappointed/angry for losing what they like and want, or not getting what they like and want, but getting what they don't like and don't want. And this relationship won't be peaceful and harmony anyway, even if they continue to be in a relationship, because they don't really love whom they think they love very much. There will be lots of 'tension' and 'unhappiness' derived from 'ungratified desires' and 'expectation' in this relationship all the time.

Be free, to love or be loved, or not.

Tuesday, May 14, 2019

A better meaningful way of life?


For many people, spending most of the time being with other people (family, friends, community and other communities), focusing on bonding, socializing, interacting, connecting, sharing, knowing, eating, drinking, talking, listening, looking, laughing, playing, empowering, encouraging, aspiring, inspiring, remembering, projecting, anticipating, expecting, creating, planning, plotting, suggesting, contributing, commenting, complimenting, criticizing, gossiping, complaining, entertaining, enjoying, doing social/community activities together, upgrading their quality of life/standard of living, fulfilling passionate desires and achieving personal worldly ambitions and spiritual or religious goals, getting involve with achieving a world that complies to a particular vision, to attain the sense of in control, satisfaction, goodness and meaningfulness, is living life. For them, "This is a better meaningful way of life."

For some people, being by oneself most of the time, as much as possible, focusing on one's action, practice, duty and responsibility, talk less or talk nothing, without commenting on worldly affairs, or gossiping about other people's affairs, or criticizing/interfering with other people's different ways of life, thinking, belief, action and reaction, minding one's life and one's mind, being at peace unconditionally, respecting everyone being what they are, as they are, neither admiring/praising certain qualities that appear to be superior than others nor condemning/criticizing certain qualities that appear to be inferior than others, and stop contributing impurities, unhappiness, unrest, anger, hatred, jealousy, dissatisfaction, disappointment, grudges, conflicts, discrimination, violence, disharmony and disturbance into the surrounding environment or the world, is living life. As for them, having peace in one's mind free from desire/hostility/animosity/fear/intimidation/offensiveness/defensiveness is the highest form of contribution to the society or the world peace. It's nothing to do with "This is a better meaningful way of life." or "Other ways of life is less good and meaningless."

There's nothing selfish about that at all, though for many people, the part of 'not mingling/mixing with the society without getting involve in any form of social activities' might appear to be 'selfish' or 'rude' or 'unhealthy' or 'non-progressive' for those who believe in a better world is about 'all human beings should be getting involve with the social activities', 'community contribution' and 'worldly activism', where they need as many other people as possible to get involve in their social activities to be supporting, cooperating or working with them to create a 'better' world that they think how it should be.

Whether wittingly or unwittingly, there will be some people would want to interfere with others who are different from them, whom they dislike and disagree with, and they would try to influence/control/covert/discipline/condemn/punish other people who don't support or follow their vision for creating a world that they desire, that complies to their liking, values, vision, thinking and belief.

Yoga and meditation practitioners is about having unconditional peace in oneself as contributing peace into the world by focusing on looking after, purifying and quieting one's mind, and it's never about trying to influence/control/convert/discipline/condemn/punish others to also be like oneself to make a 'better' world that complies to one's liking, values, vision, thinking or belief, especially those who have realized Impermanence and Selflessness.

The world doesn't belong to anyone. Many people would think and believe that the world belongs to everyone, and hence, it's everyone's duty and responsibility to 'cooperate together' to make the world 'a better place', but how true is that? The standard and meaning of 'a better place' is according to whom and what? Different people desire a world with their own particular way of life according to their own liking, values, vision, thinking and belief. If everyone insist on making the world to be the way that they desire, that they think how it should be, what will happen in the world? People are getting frustrated and fighting against one another, to over-powered one another, in order to create a world that they desire. Even so, it's everyone's freedom for their thinking, belief, desire, action and the consequences of their action.

Swami Sivananda taught, "Even if all the leaders are taken out of the world now, the world will run on smoothly, probably more smoothly. Even if all the people retire into the forest, the world will go on."

The world is so quiet and peaceful when everyone have gone to sleep and there's nobody performing any actions in the world with the great aspiration to make the world to be in any particular way that different people desire and think how it should be.

In yoga, it's not about the sense of duty and responsibility towards the world, but out of compassion, love the world as it is, not necessarily the way that 'I' desire it to be. One doesn't claim possession/ownership towards the world being ambitious to make the world to be the way that 'I' desire it to be and the way that 'I' think how it should be. One just do one's best to look after one's mind, to stop contributing impurities and unrest into the world, and respecting the law of nature - Impermanence and Selflessness.

Be free.

Monday, May 13, 2019

Selflessness?

Just like 'Self-inquiry' and 'Impermanence', 'Selflessness' is one of the common words we come across in the teachings of yoga and Buddhism.

The 'I', where there's a continuous stream of thinking/thought in the mind acknowledges as 'I' am an individual being with a physical body and thinking mind experiencing life, doesn't exist. Out of ignorance, there arise the idea of 'I' exist as part of the modification of the mind acknowledging as an individual being, attaching onto/possessing such and such qualities of names and forms to be identified/recognized as this is what/who 'I' am, claiming ownership towards the physical body and the thinking mind (this is my body and my mind) and all kinds of connection with everyone and everything that the mind comes in contact with (my family and my belongings and etc), and at the same time also identifying with the physical body and the thinking mind as 'I' (This physical body and this thinking mind is 'I').

'Selflessness' is not something to be attained by accumulating certain amount of 'merits and virtues' or 'good karma' after performing many 'good/righteous actions' or 'karma yoga/selfless service', but it's the 'realization' upon the mind seeing the truth of what is this 'I' where there's a thinking in the mind thinks and believes as 'I'. As long as there's an idea, acknowledgement and identification of "I am a selfless being performing good actions or karma yoga/selfless service" the mind is still functioning under the influence of egoism.

The mind needs to be free from egoism, impurities and restlessness to realize 'Selflessness', where there's no 'I' existing to enjoy or suffer, to be born or die, to know or don't know, to desire or don't desire, to be the performer of action and the receiver/enjoyer of the fruit of action, to be ignorant or be free from ignorance. It's just the modification of the thinking mind perceiving all the names and forms through the senses via the sense organs of the physical body. It's just the mind functioning and perceives, sees, hears, smells, tastes, feels, senses and thinks. There's no 'I' existing to claim possession/ownership/control of the selfless modification of the mind or the ceaseless impermanent changes of the modification of the mind perceiving all the names and forms that are also impermanent and selfless. It's coming from the mind being aware of the modification of the mind, while purifying and quieting itself to be free from restlessness, impurities and egoism, to be free from ignorance. It's not something else 'separated' from the mind called 'I' being there to be aware of 'my mind' or to purify and quiet 'my mind', to free 'my mind' from restlessness, impurities, egoism and ignorance.

"I am not the mind. The mind is not 'I'." is not about 'I' am an existing being/soul separated/distinct from the mind. The mind is just being what it is, functioning as it is selflessly, where there's no 'I' in the function of the mind which is supported/influenced by energy to be existing and functioning. Just like there's no 'I' in all the cells/bones/muscles/organs/systems that forming the entire structure of the physical body which depend on nature to provide support that allows the physical body to be existing and functioning. The body and mind constantly functioning or performing actions selflessly, and there are also the consequences of actions following the actions (cause and effect). But, somehow, out of ignorance, there's an idea of 'I' existing in the form of thinking claiming a personal identity and possession/ownership towards this and that, to desire and don't desire, to agree and disagree, to enjoy or suffer, to aspire and expect, and so on. There's an idea/identification of "I am the performer of my actions and I am the enjoyer of the fruit of my actions."

It's difficult/challenging for the egoistic mind that attached strongly onto a worldly self-identity attaching onto certain qualities of names and forms as this is 'I' or what 'I' am, to realize 'Selflessness'. The egoistic mind that 'possesses' a self-identity thinks and believes that 'I' exist as an individual being experiencing life, this is 'I', this is my life, my body, my mind, my thinking, my belief, my feelings, my emotion, my idea, my creativity, my energy, my health, my fitness, my strength, my flexibility, my ability, my disability, my achievement, my failure, my look, my talent, my knowledge, my education, my house, my belonging, my pet, my family, my friends, my relationship, my duty, my responsibility, my rights, my aspiration, my inspiration, my sacrifice, my happiness, my suffering, my vision, my desire, my actions, my fruit of actions, my religion, my 'God', my world, my country, and so on. Not only there's a personal identity, but there's also a group identity, such like our family, our life, our thinking, our belief, our culture, our religion, our 'God', our action, our fruit of action, our achievement, our failure, our world, our country, our vision, and so on.

"I eat, I drink, I play, I work, I rest, I aspire, I inspire, I think, I believe, I feel, I express, I laugh, I cry, I learn, I share, I give and receive, I love and beloved, I perceive, I experience, I act, I react, I achieve, I live, I die. I am existing. How can it be possible that 'I' don't exist?" It's unthinkable for the egoistic mind about 'Selflessness' - 'Egolessness' - 'I-lessness'.

That's why it's very essential for the mind to let go the attachment and identification towards any qualities of names and forms, especially the worldly conditioned egoistic way of thinking and belief in the mind that influence how the mind analyzes, judges, feels and reacts towards all and everything, as well as letting go attachment and identification towards the physical appearance/condition/ability/disability/achievement/non-achievement before the mind can reflect upon the truth of 'Selflessness'.

Once the mind is free from the attachment and identification towards the impermanent and selfless qualities of names and forms as 'I', including the function of the physical body and the thinking faculty, naturally the mind will realize the truth of 'itself' or 'the modification of the mind', that there's no 'I', knowing thyself. There's neither "I know" nor "I realize" nor "I am free from ignorance" nor "I am free."

As long as the mind is still mingling among the worldly passionate egoistic minds, that keep empowering/feeding the idea of 'I' and 'the world of egoism of all kinds of attachment and identification', it's very difficult and almost impossible for the mind to be free from ignorance and egoism. And hence, the important practice of renunciation, seclusion, solitude and silence.

According to the teachings of Swami Sivananda, the mind just needs to spend at least five to six years in seclusion and silence being away/cutting off from the worldly affairs/activities/society/family/friends/relatives/connections/interactions that feeds/empowers egoism/restlessness/impurities/ignorance, the mind will realize the truth of 'the mind perception of a worldly life existence of impermanent and selfless names and forms'. Although it doesn't guarantee that everyone who try to practice silence in seclusion and solitude for a prolonged period of time will be free from ignorance and attain self-realization, as the mind might still be influenced by gross and subtle egoistic worldly/spiritual attachment hindering the mind from seeing itself/knowing thyself. And not many people are suitable for such practice, as most passionate minds would 'go crazy' after being in seclusion and solitude for some time. Worldly passionate minds can't live or be without seeing/touching/communicating/interacting with other beings for even a short period of time, not to say for a prolonged period of time. That's why it requires certain degrees of dispassion and right discrimination for someone to practice silence in seclusion and solitude, to allow the mind to realize 'Selflessness'/'Oneness'/'Non-separateness'/'Namelessness'/'Formlessness', where 'suffering' and 'the end of suffering' doesn't exist.

Many people might understood 'Selflessness' as 'an existing name and form such as a being/soul/mind that is free from selfishness, who is unselfish', such as "I am a selfless/unselfish being/soul/mind", or "I am performing selfless action to benefit other beings and other beings will be benefited from my selfless actions."

If it's selfless, then what/who is that 'I' being there acknowledging and identifying as "I am selfless/unselfish"? It's just impermanent selfless function of the body and mind generating actions and the consequences of actions ceaselessly until the annihilation of the modification of the mind takes place, there's no 'I' being there to be acknowledging/identifying as "I am selfless/unselfish." or "I am good/bad." And hence, silent the mind, or as Swami Sivananda taught, "Kill the mind."

Selflessness is nothing to do with unselfishness. Regardless of living beings or non-living objects, all are impermanent and selfless or I-less, where there's no 'I' within all the impermanent changes. There's no 'I' existing to be identified as 'I am selfless', 'I am a selfless being', 'I am unselfish', 'I am performing selfless service and other beings are benefited from my selfless service', 'I am kind and compassionate', 'I aspire to inspire others to be selfless, kind and compassionate', and so on. There's no "I want to be selfless." or "I am becoming selfless."

'Selflessness' is the realization of there's no self or 'I', it's not about training the mind to become 'selfless' or 'unselfish'. None/nothing can train to become 'selfless', as there is no self or 'I' from the beginning. Everyone and everything is just selfless as it is. It's due to ignorance, there is the idea of 'I' arise in the thinking mind materializing itself via egoism influencing the thinking pattern of the mind, where the idea of 'I' feeds on attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation, to desire and don't desire, to aspire and expect, to enjoy and suffer, to love and be loved, to be continuing 'existing' in the form of thinking possessing a worldly self-identity with certain qualities of names and forms.

The idea of 'I' can be annihilated by eliminating egoism from the mind. As the 'I' appears to be 'real and existing' is nothing but the thinking pattern of the mind functioning under the influence of egoism, and upon annihilation of egoism or the veil of ignorance, the idea of 'I' will vanish naturally.

Upon the realization of impermanence and selflessness, naturally the mind also realizes 'timelessness'. Time doesn't exist, it's just 'what the mind perceives', and 'both the mind (the perceiver) and what the mind perceives (the perceived)' constantly changing, and the ceaseless impermanent changes as well as due to the function of memory, there's remembrance towards the impermanent changes generate the false impression of 'time' or 'I'. The mind is going through countless births and deaths of ceaseless thoughts arising and passing away generating the different states of the mind. The body is going through countless births and deaths along with all the impermanent changes that are happening in the physical body generating the different condition/appearance of the body. The mind and the body is never remain the same mind or the same body even for a moment until the body and the thinking faculty ceased functioning and existing.

There's no "I am performing yoga practice. I am a yoga practitioner. I will be receiving the benefits of the yoga practice. I am free or not free from ignorance." It's just the mind performing the practice, and whether the mind will be free from ignorance, or not.

Be free.

Friday, May 10, 2019

Different teachings / practices catering the different levels of understanding

Sometimes people might feel confused by the different teachings or practices in yoga that appear to be 'contradicted' with one another.

Such as, there is the teachings or external practice of 'Yama (refraining from immoral conduct) and Niyama (observances)', 'positive thinking', 'sattvic physical and mental inputs', 'breath control' and 'physical position' to influence/balance/purify/control/manipulate the energy field to 'change' or 'influence' the state of the mind from agitation to calmness, from dullness to brightness, from restlessness to quietness, from negative to positive, from unhealthiness to healthiness, from selfishness to unselfishness, from impurity to purity, from ignorance to the end of ignorance. These are 'the practice with names and forms' with the intention to influence or change certain 'lower qualities' to be transformed into 'higher qualities', or to let go certain old 'bad' habits and to develop new 'good' habits. This is for the passionate ones who are being conditioned deeply by worldly egoistic thinking/belief/habits/behavior/desire/action and reaction, who still identified strongly with certain qualities of names and forms (family, relationship, given name/self-identity, gender, sexual orientation, personality, self-image, physical appearance/condition/ability/disability, states of the mind of thinking/belief/feelings/emotions, action and the fruit of action, culture, religion, spirituality, community, knowledge, experiences, relationship, nationality, political point of view, and so on), who are still looking for and being determined by the sense of love, happiness, satisfaction, success, meaningfulness, confidence, positiveness, goodness, righteousness, easiness, or pleasurable enjoyments in the qualities of names and forms.

Then, there's the teachings and internal practice of the senses are being withdrawn from the sense objects, concentration and meditation, which include non-attachment, non-identification, non-craving, non-aversion, non-judgment, non-comparison, non-expectation, annihilating egoism or the idea of 'I', where there's no 'I' existing being the performer of action or the receiver/enjoyer of the fruit of action. There's neither 'I' am selfish nor 'I' am unselfish. There's neither 'I' want goodness/happiness nor 'I' don't want badness/unhappiness. It's going beyond all the qualities of names and forms, being undetermined by the Gunas/energy fields, the physical condition, the state of the mind, quality of names and forms, duality, actions and the fruit of actions.

This is for the dispassionate ones who have firm determination to transcend the mind perception of a worldly life existence of impermanent and selfless names and forms, who have abandoned worldly egoistic thinking/belief/habits/behavior/desire/action and reaction, who are disinterested in chasing after worldly objects/enjoyments/relationships/satisfaction/meaningfulness/identification/recognition, who have gone beyond the sense of love, happiness, satisfaction, success, meaningfulness, confidence, positiveness, goodness, righteousness, easiness, or pleasurable enjoyments, upon the realization of selflessness, namelessness, formlessness, attributelessness, non-duality, oneness, or non-separateness derived from self-inquiry under a desireless equanimous mind, being aware of the modification of the mind or the different states of the mind allowing all the pleasant/unpleasant or desirable/undesirable names and forms of all the sights, sounds, smells, tastes, sensations, feelings, thoughts in this present moment now being there as it is, without interfering with or controlling or changing the physical condition or the state of the mind to be something else that is not what it is, or to be 'the way that I desire it to be', allowing all the names and forms to be arising and passing away, allowing all the impermanent changes to be there, as they are.

There's neither attachment towards nor identification with the impermanent and selfless physical body/the modification of the mind as 'I'. These are 'the nameless and formless practice' without any intention to influence or change anything, but allowing all and everything to be there as they are, to be changing as they are, to be what they are, as they are.

If the external practice with names and forms are being practiced with the nameless formless internal practice, then one will know how to free the mind from egoism while performing all the external practice and allowing all the effects or benefits coming from the external practice to be there as they are, without intention to be receiving the effects/benefits of the practice, without desire of craving or aversion, without judgment or expectation, without attachment or identification with the practice or the result of the practice.

Just like the sun, the wind, the water, the earth and the space have no intention to be performing action, or to be interfering with one another and everything in the universe, or discriminating/judging/praising/condemning this is good or that is bad, but actions/activities are there constantly influencing each other.

All the different teachings and practices exist to accommodate different states of the mind with different degrees of attachment, openness, awareness, ignorance, understanding and/or realization. There's no 'contradiction' at all. It's just different stages of the entire yoga practice. However, many yoga enthusiasts might just stop at getting the effects/benefits from the yoga practice and don't want to proceed any further to free the mind from egoism, impurities, restlessness or ignorance, to free the mind from being determined by the mind perception of different qualities of names and forms, and be free, as they are not interested at all in silencing the modification of the mind, as they are passionately 'loving' and 'enjoying' the impermanent and selfless worldly life existence so much. And that's their freedom.

When the mind is being less conditioned by worldly thinking/belief/habits/action/reaction, this mind will be less disturbed by the mind perception of names and forms of all kinds of agreeable/disagreeable or pleasant/unpleasant experiences, and this will allow the mind to see the truth of things as it is, under a calm and quiet state of the mind, intentionlessly, effortlessly, spontaneously.

Sunday, May 5, 2019

Never tell people who live in difficult life condition about what they should and shouldn't eat

The realization of unconditional peace is not determined by what people eat or don't eat, or whether one is eating 'pure non-animal products vegetarian food' or 'animal products non-vegetarian food'.

By consuming 'pure and clean food' or 'non-animal products vegetarian diet' doesn't guarantee that one is or will be free from ignorance, egoism, impurities, restlessness and suffering. Just like by performing many years of 'yoga practice' also doesn't guarantee that one is free from ignorance and the by-products of ignorance. One might still be overpowered by the sense of self-righteousness, pride and superiority, and hence, be disturbed very much by what the mind perceives/recognizes as bad, wrong, negativity, inferiority, hurtful, offensive, insulting, disrespectful, undeserving, disappointing, painful sorrow, or suffering. People can be observing vegetarian diet due to cultural/religious practice for many years, and feel proud for being 'compassionate vegetarian' or being one of the member of a culture/religion, but still the mind might be not free from ignorance, egoism, impurities, restlessness and suffering.

People who consume 'particular type of non-animal products vegetarian food' with the sense of self-righteousness, pride and superiority, might be over-powered by self-righteousness and would criticize/condemn others who consume 'animal products non-vegetarian food', or vice versa. This is not part of the yoga practice.

Whether it's part of the spiritual/cultural/religious/environmental/ethical practice, or due to some other reasons that people choose to adopt a particular type of food choice based on one's thinking/belief/thoughtfulness/conscience, but we cannot tell or interfere with people what they should or shouldn't eat, or 'criticizing' or 'condemning' those whom we think they don't adopt 'that particular type of food choice' for some reasons, as we think that we are somehow more superior than others because of our superior food choice.

Just like we ourselves want to practice yoga, but we can't go into people's life and tell people what they should and shouldn't practice, or how people should and shouldn't think/believe/behave/act and react, and we can't criticize/condemn anyone who don't like yoga, or who don't practice yoga, or who aren't interested in yoga, or who don't practice yoga as it is, even though we see yoga as something good and beneficial for many people, provided if people allow their minds to be open, unattached towards any particular thinking and belief that has been conditioning/influencing how they think, judge, feel, expect, act and react towards all the names and forms, as those who attached strongly onto their particular thinking and belief cannot be open to inquire the truth of other teachings/practice that are different from their own thinking and belief, as they would instantly reject and object what is different from and contradicted with their existing social/cultural/religious/spiritual thinking and belief, of what they think they know, and do not want to learn/inquire/know any further about other teachings/practice that they disagree with based on their own thinking and belief, as well as there's fear towards knowing the truth of what if their own thinking and belief from young until now is not necessarily true, but people just blind-believing and blind-following those thinking and beliefs, and fear of 'sin' and 'punishment' due to 'losing faith in their thinking and belief', if they start questioning the truth of their thinking and belief. We can only share our knowledge and experience in yoga with those who are interested in yoga and they want to learn from our knowledge and experience, and they are ready to allow their minds to be open to inquire the truth of everything. Even so, we can't expect anyone of them to practice yoga diligently as it is. It's their own freedom and responsibility whether they want to practice yoga diligently as it is, or not, after we share the knowledge and experience with them.

People have the rights or freedom to choose what they want to eat or don't eat, even if our minds feel disagree with and disturbed by other people's choice of food consumption.

Although it's everyone's freedom if they want to interfere with other people's life, but those who truly practice yoga will not be interested in interfering with other people's life. Never tell people who live in difficult life condition, who are or have been going through many difficulties and hardship in life about what they should eat or shouldn't eat. People might be suffering and dying from hunger and malnutrition or diseases, due to poverty and lack of educational background being bullied, discriminated and exploited by the commercial world, and most probably don't make enough 'money' to buy/get enough food not to say 'clean' and 'nutritious' food even after working very hard for many hours a day. Imagine people who have a rather easy comfortable life, who don't need to suffer much hardship and difficult condition in life, go around and tell other people who have no choice but have to be doing hard labour work with very low income for survival while struggling to provide food and shelter for oneself and/or the family about what they should eat and shouldn't eat.

Keep one's thinking/belief/practice/food choice/way of life to oneself, and respect other people's different thinking/beliefs/practices/food choices/ways of life, even if they are contradicted with our thinking/belief/practice/food choice/way of life. If people want to follow our way of life/practice/food choice, that's their freedom, but not because we expect and believe that everyone should be like us.

There's nothing wrong if out of our own conscience/ethical reason that we want to adopt a particular type of food choice, but we also respect others for their different type of food choice, without criticizing/condemning other people's choices of food consumption that we don't like or don't agree with, that we think is bad and wrong, unethical or unhealthy.

Go beyond the name and form of 'vegetarian' and 'non-vegetarian'. It's not who you are/what you are, as many people, including yoga enthusiasts like to say, "You are what you eat." No doubt that food intake directly influences the energy field, the physical condition and the state of the mind, but the minds that have realized selflessness/namelessness/formlessness/attributelessness/non-separateness, it goes beyond all the identifications, names, forms, attributes, dualities, separateness, energy field, the physical condition, the state of the mind, good and bad karma, easy and difficult life condition, desirable and undesirable life experiences. It's part of the teaching of yoga of 'Transcending all the Gunas, energy field, names and forms, attributes/qualities, dualities, the physical condition and the states of the mind'. Whatever the mind thinks and identifies as 'I', is merely ignorance.

Monday, April 29, 2019

Observe silence to quiet the restless modification of the mind

When someone is performing yoga practice or meditation practice (self-practice), one is observing silence as much as possible practically, regardless of whether the mind is still processing some random thought activities, or not. One doesn't talk, or grumble, or groan, or argue, or debate, or criticize, or inspire, or aspire, or communicate/interact with anyone not even so called 'spiritual connection' with 'God' or 'higher spirits'. One doesn't read any material, or ask questions, or looking at and listening to anyone or anything (teacher/other practitioners/scenery/video/music/podcast/conversation), or expect certain feedback/evaluation towards one's practice, or expect particular result/effect/benefit/pleasure from the practice.

The senses are being withdrawn/restricted from chasing after the objects of the senses, and the outgoing mind is being channeled inward to be resting in the present moment, or to be aware of the practice/the breath/the pulse/the sensation/the flow of energy/prana/heat in the body, without attachment/identification with the selfless impermanent function of the physical body and the state of the mind, while allowing any result/effect/benefit/pleasantness/unpleasantness/ability/disability to be existing or non-existing, to be what it is, as it is, allowing any existing sights, sounds, smells, tastes, sensations and thoughts being there as they are, without analyzing/asserting/projecting/craving/aversion, without association with or attachment towards all these names and forms, to be quieting the restless modification of the mind effectively.

This is not really possible in a 'yoga class' where there is a teacher giving instructions/explanation teaching/leading a group of people performing the practice, while the group of people have to be looking at the teacher or other people in the group, and listening to while analyzing/understanding/following the teacher's instructions to perform the practice, and expecting feedback/evaluation from the teacher and/or others towards one's performance/practice, as well as expecting particular result/effect/benefit from the practice. "How well/correct am I doing the practice?"

Meanwhile some people's minds are being 'disturbed' or 'offended' very much by certain teachings of yoga being taught in the 'yoga class' that are different from their thinking and belief, or be 'disturbed' or 'intimidated' by how the teacher teach/conduct the 'yoga class', or be 'dissatisfied' with the 'yoga class' is not being the way that they would like it to be (either too intense, or too gentle, or too crowded, or too quiet, too much or not enough attention, too challenging or not challenging enough, or not the kind of practice that they would enjoy).

For people who don't know the practice yet, of course they need to learn from someone who knows the practice, such like attending 'yoga classes' for some time to be following instructions from a teacher to learn about the practice and how to perform the practice. Attending 'yoga classes' is mostly about 'learning'. After 'learning' and 'knowing' the practice, one must develop self-discipline to perform self-practice in solitude and silence, truly immersing into the practice.

That's why 'yoga practice' is always more 'practical' when performing self-practice in solitude and silence in terms of quieting the restless modification of the mind, where the modification of mind inputs and outputs are being limited to the maximum efficiently. Those who already developed their own regular self-practice don't need to attend 'yoga classes' to be following instructions to be performing their practice, though there's nothing wrong if they attend 'yoga classes' once in a while for some reasons.

There are some 'silent self-practice yoga classes' are about providing a specific practice time and space for yoga practitioners to be sharing a practice space at a specific time to be performing their own self-practice. Even though there are other practitioners being in the same space, everyone is observing silence to the maximum, focusing on their own practice. There shouldn't be any social interactions during the practice.

'Yoga teachers' need to teach 'yoga classes' in the way that would allow the students to develop the essential understanding of the teaching and practice, as well as self-reliance and self-discipline, and be able to perform self-practice without supervision/instruction from other people, and this will allow the mind be trained to turn inward to be quiet and be able to process and solve most problems in life by itself.

There's nothing wrong with 'asking and receiving help and support from others' when someone encounters 'problems' in life, especially in terms of some physical and mental illnesses that require special care and specific medical treatment, or some technical problems where everyone has their own limited knowledge and experience to be doing something, and people need to be helped and supported by other people who have the knowledge and experience that oneself doesn't have. While for most non-technical and non-medical care/treatment related problems, such like 'thinking/decision making/relationship/emotional problems', the best solution or the best answer to one's doubt, is coming from within of a calmed and quiet mind.

One just needs to learn to be by oneself and be quiet, be away from all kinds of advice, opinion or suggestion from different people who 'would like' to give 'advice, suggestion, help and support' in the way that they think it's best from their own point of view, and observe/watch what is going on in the mind, seeing the nature and the root cause of what the mind perceives/recognizes as 'problems/doubts/unhappiness/hurts', to allow the mind to go beyond and be undisturbed by these 'problems/doubts/unhappiness/hurts'. Once the mind sees the truth, all kinds of 'problems/doubts/unhappiness/hurts' will eventually cease existing. One doesn't need to talk to anyone about anything to release tension/unhappiness, or hoping someone is there to be listening to and sharing one's 'problems', to be receiving advice, love, care, help or support from other people, to feel better, or to influence oneself making certain decision.

Although there's nothing wrong when most people would see this thinking and emotional independence of 'self-reliant thinking/decision making/relationship/emotional problem solving' as 'unacceptable', 'inappropriate', 'wrong' or 'unhealthy' social behavior, as most people in the society practice and encourage all human beings need to be 'reaching out to other people', 'talking to other people' and 'receiving advice, help, support from other people', and most people do 'need' to reach out to other people to get help and suggestion, as they are being conditioned by the society to be emotionally interdependent, that they don't know how to deal with 'the problems' they have and making decision independently by themselves, or else, when they think and feel that their 'problems' are too much for them, when they think they are alone and have no one being there to be helping and supporting them, they might hurt themselves and/or others, whether wittingly or unwittingly. People think and believe that 'all human beings' need to hold onto 'something' physically/mentally/emotionally to live life, whether it's family, friends, relationship, children, pets, hobby, interest, work, religion, spirituality, 'God', or anything that give/feed the sense of existence and meaningfulness. When something falls apart or during the most difficult moments, at least they think they have something that they can lean or hang onto. And that's their freedom of choice.

People would think and believe, "Oh, what a pitiful meaningless life without family/friends/somebody being there to share, to talk to, to play with, to support one another, to enjoy life." This saying doesn't valid/apply to the minds that practice yoga, that are free from being conditioned by worldly social/cultural/religious/political thinking and belief, that are aware of what is going on in the mind and be unattached towards/undetermined by the selfless impermanent qualities of names and forms, that are free from desire of craving and aversion.

In yoga, this ability of 'self-reliant thinking/decision making/relationship/emotional problem solving' is true liberation for the mind, being undisturbed or being okay under any difficult moments and challenging condition and situation in life that one has to deal with by oneself, where one has clear thinking and self-control without hurting oneself and/or others. It doesn't mean that one doesn't have any family/friends in life, but one doesn't need to rely on the existence of family/friends/somebody being present as supporter, or receiving help/support from anyone to deal with any difficult moments under challenging condition and situation. When 'family/friends/somebody' or external help and support from other people/teacher/Guru/'God' appear to be absent or not available for some reasons, it's fine. One doesn't need to hurt oneself and/or others, as one is peaceful as one is, being undetermined by any 'difficult moments' or 'existing problems' that one is going through, repairing what can be repaired and letting go what has to be let go, making decisions without doubt/fear/guilt/regret, and taking full responsibility towards one's actions and the consequences of the actions.

"You came alone and you will go alone." - Swami Sivananda

Saturday, April 27, 2019

Approaching a teacher asking to be accepted as student of yoga

Traditionally, when someone is interested in finding a teacher to learn, study and practice yoga and meditation under the guidance of this person (the teacher), one needs to approach the teacher humbly asking to be accepted as a student of yoga under this teacher, serving the teacher without asking/expecting "What am I getting from learning yoga under you?" or "What can you (the teacher) give me in return for offering fees/donations to you to be learning and practicing yoga from you and serving you?"

The teacher will then observe and test this person to see whether this person is fit to be a student of yoga. Once the person is accepted to be a student of yoga, this person will live closely to the teacher for many years, where in the first few years are merely doing some random 'work/service' in daily life, such like housekeeping/cooking/gardening/cleaning/washing serving the teacher (very important/efficient initial purification to eliminate worldly habits of egoism and impurities) before being initiated into the practice. There's high degree of segregation/non-physical contact among the teacher and the student. It's not like nowadays, most people are looking forward to be touching and hugging as the way to show friendliness, love and care.

The teacher doesn't advertise/boast about "I am a certified/qualified/experienced/internationally recognized/affiliated yoga teacher" and "What kind of benefits/certification/qualification/result/achievement you will get if you attend my classes/courses learning yoga from me." but instead, "It's a hard-work. There will be lots of unpleasantness/pain and hardships/obstacles that you need to deal with by yourself. You have to walk the path alone by yourself. You need to be determined, persevered and vigilant to discipline your own mind until you attain self-realization." And the students of yoga will be determined to finish their learning under the teacher no matter how much difficulties and obstacles arise during the physical/mental/emotional purification process, while developing discipline and independence in their own practice, as one day, they will have to leave the teacher, or the teacher will leave.

It's not about to be 'qualified' as 'yoga teachers/masters', be 'affiliated' with 'yoga alliance' to be 'conducting yoga classes' to teach 'yoga classes' or 'conducting yoga courses' to be 'training yoga teachers to teach yoga or conduct yoga classes/yoga courses to other people'. As a 'yogi' who knows yoga doesn't need to be 'trained' to be 'qualified' to be 'certified yoga teacher' and 'affiliated with' such and such 'yoga organization/alliance' to be 'recognized/authorized' to teach yoga to anyone. It's neither about 'correct/proper physical alignments', 'teaching techniques', 'effects/benefits of the yoga practice', 'healing', 'connecting', 'sharing', 'hugging' and 'touching'.

Nowadays, this tradition is no longer be seen/practiced/appreciated. One of the reason would be the existence of 'sincere teacher of yoga' and 'sincere student of yoga' is very rare now.

In this modern commercialized world of 'higher education and higher quality of life with worldly social values and practice', the 'yoga teachers' have to 'advertise' or 'boast' about their 'certification/qualification/recognition/affiliation/experiences/achievements' and 'to be presenting' something 'unique, enjoyable, innovative and attractive' to attract people to be interested to come to attend the 'yoga classes' or 'yoga courses' conducted by them, while gratifying the people's desire of craving and aversion, by giving them what they want/like and don't give them what they don't want/like, to make them feel treasured, appreciated, valued, pampered, satisfied and empowered. Both the teacher and the students also want to develop and maintain an inter-dependent 'connection/relationship' where the students ceaselessly need to receive attention, love, care, support, acknowledgement, advice or feedback from the teacher, while the teacher wants to 'be close' to the students, 'be there' for the students, 'be connecting' with the students, or 'be loved/needed/glorified/supported/respected' by the students.

Because most egoistic impure minds are being conditioned deeply by the worldly thinking behavior pattern, almost all of the 'yoga enthusiasts' or the 'prospect/potential students/clients' of the 'yoga school/yoga studio/yoga centre' will have some kind of 'request' or 'expectation' towards the 'yoga school', 'yoga studio', 'yoga center', 'yoga classes', 'yoga courses' or 'yoga teachers' to meet up their 'requests' and 'expectation' in terms of the 'quality' of the 'professional profile/image', 'qualification', 'certification', 'recognition', 'affiliation', 'organization', 'experience', 'achievement', or 'result orientation', and above all, "How much and what do I get from paying this amount of 'fees'/'donation' to the 'yoga school'/'yoga studio'/'yoga centre'/'yoga teacher' for attending the 'yoga classes'/'yoga courses'."

Many of the untrained worldly egoistic impure minds will have doubt/insecurity towards their own 'determination' being determined by whether they will like/enjoy 'the teacher's over-all presentation/image/charm/professionalism/credibility/teaching style' or 'the classes' or 'the practice', or not, where they are unsure/unwilling to pay fees in advance which might be 'non-refundable' if they want to 'give up' when they experience discomfort or difficulty, or when they 'don't like/enjoy' the 'teacher/classes/practice', while the truth of the purification process deriving from performing 'serious/intense/persevered yoga and meditation practice to eliminate ignorance/egoism/impurities/restlessness' is inevitably 'unpleasant' and 'painful' physically/mentally/emotionally for all egoistic impure minds. Even before the students come to the 'yoga school/yoga studio/yoga centre' to begin learning and practicing yoga under the teacher, the test/obstacle derived from the purification process already started. All kinds of obstacles manifest in the form of physical/mental/emotional discomfort and doubt.

Unfortunately, there are quite many stories of 'impure yoga teachers' existing in the world 'taking advantage' of the attention/love seeking 'yoga students', where people looking forward to be 'touched', creating many forms of 'corruption', and then there are 'impure yoga students' who didn't get what they like and want from the teachers and they criticized and bitched about the teachers with the intention to hurt/damage the teacher's reputation, that makes it even harder and more challenging for 'yoga enthusiasts' to 'surrender' all doubts/insecurity, to be opened to approach a teacher to ask to be accepted as 'student of yoga' and to 'serve' the teacher without attachment, identification and expectation, to be effectively purifying and eliminating egoism and impurities, to free the mind from restlessness and the veil of ignorance.

There's neither right nor wrong, neither good nor bad. It's just how things are in this world.

Anyway, 'sincere teachers of yoga' and 'sincere students of yoga' will meet each other in due time and due cause. There's no 'attachment', 'identification' or 'expectation' towards each other. The students/practitioners 'serve' the teacher humbly for years, surrendering the ego and worldly passionate desire/ambition/thinking/belief/social behavior pattern, and developing self-discipline. After learning/receiving the teachings from the teachers, the students retreat into seclusion and solitude, working diligently and independently towards purifying and silencing the modification of the mind, to perform self-inquiry upon the truth of everything, to attain self-realization and total annihilation of the mind or the mind perception of an impermanent and selfless worldly life existence of countless 'births' and 'deaths' of names and forms (thoughts/feelings/emotions/relationships) arising and passing away, of ignorance, egoism, impurities, restlessness and suffering.

 "You are left alone now." - Swami Sivananda

Sunday, April 14, 2019

Long Residential Yoga Holiday in Langkawi at Yoga Now Malaysia

 The view in front Yoga Now Malaysia during rainy season

Long Residential Yoga Holiday at Yoga Now Malaysia

If you are looking for a calm and peaceful environment to practice and learn yoga and meditation Yoga Now offers exactly that. We are a very small-scale operation and will run retreats even just for one person. Better still, you don't need to choose from a list of fixed dates - you can start your yoga retreat whenever you choose, any day of the week, any time of the year (subject to availability). We keep our retreats and workshops deliberately small to ensure you receive individual attention. All retreats are suitable for all including complete beginners.

Yoga Now Malaysia in Langkawi has been running ongoing flexible dates retreats for the past ten years for those who only have a few days of short holiday to be participating in a short concentrated retreat to be learning and practicing yoga and meditation as much as possible within a few days that enable them to develop the basic understanding towards the teachings and practice of yoga, which also allows many of them to develop self-discipline and self-reliance that is very important in developing self-practice wherever they are.

From time to time, we also get some requests for longer retreat with moderate daily yoga and meditation practice over a few weeks time.

Some people would like to have some quiet solitude time for themselves over a period of time to be kind to themselves, to look after their mind, to be quiet, to have some space for oneself, to be contemplating, or to be able to see things in different perspective.

Some people might want to learn and practice yoga under a teacher's guidance, but at the same time, they would also like to have the free time and energy to perform their own self-practice making use of the time and space staying at the accommodation at Yoga Now for a few weeks.

Some people might have some physical health/fitness limitation that doesn't allow them to be attending the standard full day retreat practice sessions, but they are very keen to join a yoga retreat to be learning and practicing yoga at Yoga Now Malaysia.

Some people would like to participate in a yoga retreat to learn and practice yoga with us, but they would prefer just joining one yoga/meditation/pranayama practice session everyday over a few weeks time, such as a few weeks long 'free and easy' yoga holiday where they can do some yoga and meditation practice everyday while be able to have more resting/personal time, or have some free time and energy to enjoy some other activities that they would like to do, or to enjoy and explore all that Langkawi has to offer.

Some people would like to take a few weeks time off from the hustle-bustle in everyday life to have some quiet solitude time for themselves away from social affairs, interactions and activities, to stay at the one and only accommodation at Yoga Now Malaysia, to do some guided yoga and meditation practice under the teachers everyday, but without the need of joining the standard full day retreat sessions.

Some people would like to spend a few weeks in a quiet secluded environment with as little distraction as possible for a few weeks, to be doing things that require certain degrees of focus and solitude, such as to do some writing, while also be able to do some guided yoga and meditation practice everyday that could help in terms of being attentive towards what they want to do under a calmed and focused mind.

And hence, a free and easy yoga retreat program - Long Residential Yoga Holiday is now being introduced by Yoga Now Malaysia to meet such requests, where the duration of the retreat can be ranging from 11 days/10 nights up to 21 days/20 nights.

For more details please visit our website -  http://www.yoganowmalaysia.com/yogaholiday.html

A short video of Yoga Now Malaysia in Langkawi -



*Most people join our yoga retreats for calm and quiet introspection. Please note that despite the relaxed and friendly atmosphere at Yoga Now our retreats are not suitable for people expecting lots of social interaction and activity.

Monday, April 8, 2019

Retreat and quieting the restless outgoing pleasure/stimulation seeking mind

Some people asked us, "What are the fun holiday activities we can do during the free time between the yoga and meditation practice sessions in the yoga retreat?"

Many people might be unaware of the yoga practice are being carried out in every moment whether during the yoga practice 'sessions' and outside the yoga practice 'sessions' during a yoga retreat, or in everyday life.

Not that 'doing/enjoying some fun holiday activities' are wrong or bad, but the yoga practice is all about changing the worldly behavior pattern/habitual action and reaction of the mind, filtering/reducing/restricting/limiting the physical and mental activities, to withdraw the outgoing tendency of the mind, to be quieting the restless pleasure/stimulation seeking mind, while freeing the mind from egoism of attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation, to prepare the mind for meditation, to see the truth of things as it is, be free from ignorance and suffering that derived from ignorance.

In a 'retreat', this yoga practice of restricting the activities of the body and the mind and quieting the restless modification of the mind is being put into practice, seizing the opportunity of participating in a 'retreat' for an extended period of time, to be retreating from all kinds of worldly physical and mental activities that gratify the desire of craving for pleasurable actions, adventures, thrills, achievements, enjoyment and stimulation. Retreat participants should make use of the free time in between the yoga practice 'sessions' or other than performing daily task such like tidying/cleaning the living space, taking meals and shower, to 'take rest' and 'be quiet' physically and mentally, as well as observing the habitual action and reaction and the desire of gross/subtle craving of the mind especially during the time 'not doing anything particular physically or mentally' not even doing some kind of physical or mental yoga practice to occupy the mind, or when 'boredom' and 'the sense of meaninglessness' starts to manifest in the mind urging the mind to go out there to be doing something to get rid of the 'boredom' and 'the sense of meaninglessness'.

The untrained mind usually doesn't like to 'be quiet physically and mentally' being in the present moment reducing/limiting/restricting the physical and mental activities or 'doing nothing particular' not even some kind of 'spiritual practice' or 'healthy/meaningful activities' to be occupying the mind with 'something', as the mind will get bored and feel meaningless, and hence, it needs to be constantly seeking actions/adventures/thrills/achievements, enjoyment and stimulation. And hence, the restlessness. And yoga practice is to free the mind from this worldly thinking/belief/practice/habit of 'constantly need to occupy the mind with something to keep it busy/restless so that it doesn't get bored or feel meaningless'.

We don't just reduce/restrict/limit/retreat from worldly physical and mental activities during a 'retreat' for a few days or weeks, we also practice partial or maximum retreat from worldly social affairs, activities and interactions as much as possible in our everyday life to stop feeding the desire and the outgoing pleasure/stimulation seeking tendency of the mind.

Contemplate on this, and find out whether oneself is practicing yoga to free the mind from the habitual worldly behavior pattern, to quiet/silent the restless modification of the mind, by renouncing/retreating from worldly egoistic physical and mental activities that empower egoism and restlessness, or just doing some kinds of 'yoga practice' a few hours a day regularly to be gaining some impermanent/momentary physical and mental benefits to gratify the desire of craving and aversion of the mind, to feel good, healthy and meaningful. And there's nothing wrong either if oneself is not practicing yoga to change the habitual worldly behavior habit of the mind, to free the mind from ignorance and egoism, to quiet/silent the modification of the mind. But for those who sincerely want to practice yoga, they can contemplate on this.

Saturday, April 6, 2019

Go beyond the fight for legal recognition or approval for being who/what you are

Before the existence of 'authority' and 'laws' being introduced into the world, everyone is free being who/what they are, what they want to think and believe or not thinking and disbelieving, and be able to live/travel/wander/migrate anywhere and everywhere, unrestricted by so called 'authority' and 'laws'.

None need to be labelled as 'such and such nationality/gender/race/class'. None need to be fighting for attaining 'legal' recognition or approval for being who they are/what they want to be. None need to fight for 'equality' or 'equal treatment' or 'respect'. 'Human rights' and all kinds of 'rights' shouldn't be existing at all. There needn't be an 'authority' and 'laws' existing to 'authorize/sanction/judge/criminalize/punish who and what have/don't have 'such and such rights', or have more/less 'rights' than one another. Human beings just need to respect one another and be kind/thoughtful/tolerant/accommodating towards one another.

Somehow, somewhere, some people, with the excuse/aspiration of 'protecting the welfare of the world/society and keeping the world/society in order', certain people self-proclaimed ownership and authority towards lands, areas, space and the society/community, set up boundaries, labels, laws and punishments to limit/control all and everyone have to comply to certain rules and regulations based on particular thinking/belief/disbelief/ideas/values/practice/behavior/way of life or culture/religion/spirituality, and in the name of humanity for developing/protecting 'goodness and righteousness' and fighting/eliminating 'badness and wrongfulness', to uphold peace and harmony/social stability and prosperity in the world/society, and to keep the society in a 'particular order' that complying to a particular thinking/belief/ideas/values/practice, either by force, or by conversion, or by temptation, to be recruiting or building a majority of the society/community that support, empower and comply to such 'system' that gives power to certain people being 'the authority' to 'control' all the others who are ignorantly and wittingly supporting that 'system' to be 'controlled legally' by an 'authority' and be limited by 'legally' binding laws, from some 'simple rules and regulations for keeping order in the society and for the benefits of all humanity' but eventually/gradually being evolved into many 'selfish corrupted rules and regulations for propagating certain agendas and protecting the benefits of certain people', that gives rise to all kinds of discrimination, prejudice, unjust, corruption, oppression, intimidation, offense, punishment, restriction, intrusion, unrest, hatred, fear and violence.

A world/society that needs to be 'governed'/'supported'/'protected' by 'human rights' and all kinds of 'rights', that needs to be 'controlled' under 'an authority' and 'laws' to be in a 'particular order' will never going to be 'healthy'.

A healthy world/society comes from correct education/understanding that allows people to be opened to allow and respect all and everyone being different from one another without discrimination/prejudice/unjust/hatred/intrusion/interference/hostility or trying to over-powered one another, without the sense of superiority and inferiority, where people have the correct understanding/matured mentality to be thinking properly/calmly/clearly, being who/what they are and respect others being who/what they are, without the need of 'authorization', or 'recognition', or 'legality', or 'approval', or 'acknowledgement' from such and such 'authority' and 'laws', without anyone/authority claiming ownership/possessiveness/authorization over anything that approves/disapproves anyone being here or anywhere in this space of the universe that doesn't belong to anyone or any 'authority'. People are being free to inquire the truth of things, having the freedom of thinking/action/expression/belief/disbelief/opinion, but also having awareness and self-control over one's actions and be responsible for one's actions and the consequences of one's actions, not to say to be selfless and compassionate, but being thoughtful, forgiving and accommodating, where all kinds of discrimination/corruption/intrusion/unjust/hatred/hostility/violence have no reason to be existing in the world/society.

Unfortunately, due to deep ignorance and human's survival instinct, not everyone could have the correct understanding or proper/calm/clear thinking to be open to respect one another, to allow everyone being what they are, as they are, being different in many ways and have their own thinking/belief/disbelief/way of life/behavior/action and reaction.

Out of survival instinct, most people will be selfish to protect their lives, livelihood, home, family, tribe, community, lands/areas, privilege and supremacy. Even the self-proclaimed 'good and righteous human beings' would want to protect what they think and believe is 'goodness' and 'righteousness', and fight against what they think and believe is 'badness' and 'wrongfulness'.

When people try to fight for 'certain rights', 'equal treatment', 'legal approval for doing something or going somewhere or living somewhere' and 'legal recognition towards particular identity or belief/disbelief or way of life or sexual orientation' from an 'authority', people are unaware of they are actually acknowledging, supporting, approving and empowering the 'system', unwittingly being part of the game of the 'system'. Most people think and believe that, "We all live in the system and are part of the system. We have to comply to the system controlled by 'the authority' and 'laws' to keep everything in the 'correct' order. If we want to be 'who we are/what we want to be', we need approval and recognition from the system. We need to support the system to keep the society in order and to keep the economy alive for us to have a livelihood to survive." That's their freedom of thinking/belief.

While in yoga/Buddhism/science, all and everything live in the solar system and are part of the solar system being determined by the law of nature to be surviving and existing, or not, and all are subject to the law of impermanence and selflessness and the law of cause and effect, which is nothing to do with the system of 'human authority' and 'human regulated rules and regulations' that give power to certain people to keep everyone under their control to think/believe/behave/live life in certain ways.

"Retreat from the society, renounce the world, stay away from politics/debates/gossips/vain talks." This is the common teaching/advice from many teachers in the past.

Siddhartha Gautama Buddha taught, "Dharma will disappear from the world." He didn't teach, "Save Dharma from disappearance at all cost, don't let it disappears from the world."

Swami Sivananda taught, "Even if all the leaders are taken out of the world now, the world will run on smoothly, probably more smoothly. Even if all the people retire into the forest, the world will go on."

If people truly wish for everyone being non-discriminated in this world, it's not about fighting for everyone to be given 'equal rights' by 'the authority' that created 'a system of discrimination', but it's by abandoning all the 'rights' and 'privilege' that generates all kinds of discrimination being given by 'the authority' that were not given to some other people due to 'the system of discrimination' or 'the laws say so'. But in reality, not many people want 'everyone' to be treated equally or be given 'equal rights', because they want to enjoy the benefits from the 'rights' and 'privilege' that they have, but others don't have, and most people won't give up all the 'rights' and 'privilege' that were given to them to fully support those who were not given any rights or have less rights than others being discriminated by 'the system of discrimination'. Because of 'the system', people are afraid of having 'no rights' or 'legal documentation', as one who has no rights or legal documentation cannot be here or anywhere on earth 'legally' and naturally is a 'criminal against the law who would be punished by law' under 'the laws' made by human beings for the sake of keeping the world in a particular order. How absurd is that.

Before the realization of selflessness, you are who you are/what you want to be, regardless of whether it's recognized/approved/acknowledged/authorized by an 'authority' and 'laws', or not.

Upon the realization of selflessness, there's no 'I' being there that needs to be identifying as 'somebody with a particular identity of a quality of name and form' longing to be recognized/approved/acknowledged/authorized by oneself, or anyone, or anything.

Be free.

Friday, April 5, 2019

Changing the conditioned thinking pattern of the mind

The thinking pattern of the untrained minds is unwittingly being conditioned by certain worldly social cultural or religious/spiritual thinking/belief/disbelief/ideas/values/practice, including the minds that think and believe that they are 'good minds' or 'good beings' with 'good ideas', 'good merits', 'good virtues', 'good belief', 'good conduct', 'good personality', or 'good characteristic', that identify themselves as 'good people' with 'good and righteous behavior' in the world, or the minds that think and believe that they are not 'good enough' and they aspire to be 'good enough' to be identified/recognized/acknowledged as 'good minds', 'good beings', or 'good people with good and righteous behavior'.

Not that 'being good' or 'doing good' or 'good behavior' is something bad or wrong, but the minds that are free from ignorance and egoism, are free from such identification/recognition/acknowledgement attached onto any quality of names and forms complying to certain worldly/social/cultural or religious/spiritual thinking/belief/disbelief/ideas/values/practice about what is good and bad, right and wrong, positive and negative, or meaningfulness and meaninglessness.

Those who sincerely want to transcend the modification of the mind, who are determined to free the mind from ignorance and all kinds of suffering that derived from ignorance, need to work diligently on changing the thinking pattern of the mind, freeing the mind from such conditioned thinking/belief/values/practice/identification.

Those who just want to do some yoga practice regularly to attain some impermanent physical and mental health and fitness benefits, as well as those who just want to be good and do good to accumulate good karma/virtues/merits as much as possible hoping to have a better next life 'transition/incarnation' or entering 'blissful heaven', they don't need to inquire into this basic yet important teaching and practice of yoga.

The untrained ignorant egoistic minds are like a 'sponge' that absorbs everything that is possible whether wittingly or unwittingly, while thinking and believing and identifying itself as 'the sponge that filled with whatever it absorbs/contains/holds', such like, 'I am a good sponge that absorbs/contains/holds all the good elements' or 'I am a bad sponge that absorbs/contains/holds all the bad elements'.

The selfless minds are free from such thinking/belief/identification.

Contemplate on this, and be free.

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