be free, be happy, be peaceful

May all find the teacher within to guide oneself towards unconditional love and peace

Friday, July 20, 2018

How to be free from the idea of 'I', or the ego

Most minds cannot understand about the teaching and practice of yoga about the annihilation of the ego, or be free from the idea of 'I'.

It's beyond the logical thinking of many minds/people about the practice of annihilating the ego, or the idea of 'I'. This is because the thinking itself is the identification of 'I'. The thinking/The identification of 'I' can't go beyond what is beyond the thinking or the identification of 'I'. And hence, there's a thinking/thought/idea/belief of "I am existing." that leads to the doubt of "How come the teachings of yoga talk about 'selflessness', that there's no 'I'?"

Some people think and understand that the annihilation of the ego means "I don't have an ego." by thinking that there is an 'I' existing being aware of the absence of the ego, and thus, "I am being free from the ego or without the ego." Then what is that 'I' that thinks itself doesn't have an ego?

The 'I' is the ego. As long as there's an idea of 'I', or an identity of a being existing as 'I', thinking that "I don't have an ego." this mind is not free.

The ego is the identity/idea of 'I' in the mind as a form of thinking/thought/belief/idea/part of the memories. The annihilation of the ego is the annihilation of 'I'. There is no 'I' existing. And hence, there is no "I am free from the ego." or "I am a being without the ego."

The ego, or the idea of 'I' exists in the form of thinking/thought as an individual being experiencing life through a body and a mind, perceiving all the names and forms through the sense organs, being the performer of actions and the receiver/enjoyer of the fruit of actions, attaching onto and identifying with particular family and educational background/culture/religion/social group/spiritual or non-spiritual thinking and belief, being proud of certain qualities, abilities and possessions, thinking and not thinking, knowing and not knowing, believing and not believing, remembering and forgetting, feeling and sensing, desiring and non-desiring, growing and learning, acting and reacting, discriminating, judging and expecting, being peaceful and peaceless, to love and be loved, building a life and relationships, procreating, changing, decaying and dying.

The idea of 'I' is just a thinking/thought/idea/belief. The idea of 'I', or the ego, merely 'existing' as a stream of thinking/thoughts, or a continuous thought out of ceaseless thoughts arising and passing away. Under the function of the memory there is remembrance or acknowledgement of an 'I', being born, growing, experiencing, learning, feeling, sensing, acting, aspiring, inspiring, enjoying, suffering, changing, decaying and dying. If there's no remembrance of certain parts of the existence and function of the body and mind, there's no 'I' in those 'blankness'. There's no 'I' in Silence, or in the absence of the modification of mind/thought-current/thought activities.

People say, "I was happy or unhappy. I was good or bad. I enjoyed or suffered." Even in this present moment, this 'I' is no longer the 'I' a moment ago. Mere countless thoughts generate countless ideas of the ever changing impermanent 'I' in different states/forms, of countless 'births' and 'deaths' of countless 'I'.

Who/what is this 'I', if there's no function of memory or the ability of remembering the countless thoughts that arising and passing away ceaselessly? Even though there is remembrance of certain thoughts throughout the day, not to say, weeks/months/years, it's only a small part of all the thoughts arising and passing away, of the stronger imprints. And hence, why still holding onto all the past memories of good and bad/happy and unhappy past experiences (even the remembrance of the last moment) to be who/what 'I' am? While continuing to feel disturbed, or angry, or hating, or hurt, or disappointed by the past experiences that was unpleasant or not the way that 'the thinking' would like it to be, or feel sad and missing something that was pleasant and the way that 'the thinking' liked it to be, but is no longer available in this present moment. Continuously thinking that "I am hurt and in painful sorrow." and "I need to be healed from hurt and be free from painful sorrow." or "I am missing someone or something."

The body and the mind is impermanent and selfless. The body and the mind is not 'I'. There's no 'I' in the body and mind to be in control or claim possession/ownership of the impermanent existence of the body and mind.

It's like when the body suffered from an injury and there is a wound or scar due to the injury. But the body is not 'I'. The body is impermanent and the wound/scar is impermanent, and it's not "I suffered an injury, or I have a wound/scar due to an injury."

It's the same as the thinking mind. If the thinking mind is not free from ignorance and the ego, and the ignorant egoistic mind feels hurt by hurtful experiences. But the mind is not 'I'. The mind is impermanent and the hurtful feeling is impermanent, and it's not "I feel hurt by hurtful experiences."

Whether we like it, or not, and agree with it, or not, the teachings and practice of yoga is all about the annihilation of the ego, or the idea of 'I'.

But how to be free from the idea of 'I' or how to eliminate the ego?

Since the ego is just a thinking/thought/idea/belief, it's not real or it doesn't exist at all. It's the egoism being the by-product of the modification of the mind under the influence of ignorance that 'create' or 'generate' the existence of the ego, or 'I', and making the 'I' seems 'real' and 'existing'. And so, to annihilate the ego, is about freeing the mind from egoism of attachment, identification, desires of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation. This is the part of the yoga practice that many minds think and feel "It's difficult."

Once egoism is absent/annihilated, the mind is just what it is. The mind is neither good nor bad. Life existence is neither good nor bad. All kinds of experiences are neither good nor bad.

There's no 'I' being there to assert wants and don't wants, likes and dislikes, agreements and disagreements, and experiencing happiness/unhappiness, hurt, dissatisfaction, disappointment, greed, painful sorrow, offensiveness, defensiveness, agitation, depression, hostility, anger, hatred, fear and worry.

It's all in the present moment, depending on whether egoism is present or absent in the mind. It's neither easy nor difficult. It's not something to be attained in the future after certain years or certain amount of yoga practice. The future doesn't exist. There's no guarantee that the ego will be annihilated after certain years and certain amount of yoga practice. But in this very moment, the only existence, whether the mind is free/not free from ignorance and egoism that generate the existence of an identity of 'I' being here to enjoy or suffer.

More important is that, there's no 'I' being there to annihilate egoism from the mind. There's no 'I' am performing yoga practice of purifying the mind and freeing the mind from the ego. There's no 'I' am free or not free from egoism, or the ego. There's no 'I' am practicing yoga or meditation. There's no 'I' am good or bad. There's no 'I' am suffering or 'I' am free from suffering. There's no 'I' am selfish or 'I' am unselfish. There's no 'I' am selfless. There's no 'I' in attributelessness, namelessness and formlessness.

It's just the mind purifying itself out of awareness, being aware of the consequences of egoism and be persevered to let go egoism of attachment, identification, desires of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation. It's the mind/the thinking being free or not free from ignorance and egoism.

Be free.

Wednesday, July 18, 2018

Fearlessness, desirelessness, presentness, peacefulness, are all one

Beyond all the mind perception of different qualities of names and forms, of all the births and deaths, togetherness and separateness, joy and grief, pleasure and pain, success and failure, pleasantness and unpleasantness, likes and dislikes, agreements and disagreements, wants and don't wants.

Beyond all the thinking and belief of good and bad, right and wrong, positive and negative, happiness and unhappiness, meaningfulness and meaninglessness, perfection and imperfection.

Being undetermined and undisturbed by the mind perception of impermanent names and forms that are limited and conditioned by time, space and causation, of cause and effect, of ceaseless actions and consequences of actions.

Being free from ignorance and egoism.

Being free from the past memories and the future imaginations.

Being free from longing, clinging, anger, hatred, jealousy, greed, dissatisfaction, disappointment, hurt, regret, guilt, pride, arrogance, hostility, depression, fear and worry.

The realization of selflessness and inaction in all actions, of countless selfless states of the mind arising and passing away.

Fearlessness, desirelessness, presentness, peacefulness, are all one.

Sunday, July 15, 2018

Self-righteousness is not yoga practice

Self-righteousness is part of the egoism acting in conjunction with worldly thinking and belief about what is right and wrong/good and bad, it's not part of the yoga practice. In yoga practice, the mind disciplines itself to be free from the cause of suffering - Ignorance, egoism and impurities, to see the truth as it is, going beyond all kinds of thinking and belief about what is right and wrong/good and bad, being free from egoism of attachment, identification, craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation. This is not the same as egoistic self-righteousness that is based on particular worldly thinking and belief about what is right and wrong/good and bad, to judge, criticize, discipline and punish oneself and/or others, or out of the sense of pride and superiority, one interferes with other minds/people, with intention to influence/control/change/discipline/punish other minds/people that one doesn't like and doesn't agree with.

Under the many different cultures, many people growing up being encouraged to develop self-righteousness to uphold what they believe as right and good. It's regarded as a 'good quality' that someone should possess, to discipline oneself. It's fine if people just stop at 'disciplining' oneself in accordance to one's belief and practice about 'what is right and wrong/good and bad'. But most people don't just stop there, but they also want to self-appoint themselves as 'morality guardian/hero' to 'discipline' others whom they know or don't know, whom are different from them, whom they dislike and disagree with, whom they think and believe are 'wrong' and 'bad' in accordance to their own cultural/religious/social/political/personal thinking and belief or practice.

People are being encouraged to develop a strong self-identity/family identity/national identity/cultural identity/religious identity/political identity/social identity and have strong sense of pride towards their identity of that particular thinking and belief, values and practice, and then based on that particular thinking and belief, values and practice, people judge all and everything, and expect themselves and others in the society or the world to somehow comply to that particular thinking and belief, values and practice to think, to behave and to live life the way that they can agree with/accept.

People also like to talk about personal/family/social/national/global 'development' and 'peace and happiness', but mostly are being influenced by self-righteousness based on their particular cultural/religious/social/political/personal thinking and belief, values and practice about what are 'good/right/positive/progressive development' and 'peace and happiness' to them. It's not so much about universal selfless development, peace and happiness for all kinds of diversity beyond all the different names and forms, unlimited by any particular cultural/religious/social/political/personal point of view, thinking and belief, values and practice.

If someone truly/sincerely wants to have peace in oneself and wish to contribute peace into the world that one is living in, the mind needs to be free from self-righteousness based on a particular values of life existence, way of life and conduct, thinking and belief about what is right and wrong/good and bad.

Though it's not necessary, but most minds/people think and believe that as 'an individual among the species of human beings', they need to rely/attach onto a particular values, way of life and conduct, cultural/religious/social/political/personal thinking and belief to nurture/build a personal/worldly identity to be existing as who they are, and to think, to behave and to live life complying to that particular values, way of life and conduct, cultural/religious/social/political/personal thinking and belief.

Most minds/people don't just keep their values of life existence, way of life and conduct, cultural/religious/social/political thinking and belief only to themselves, but they want to interfere with others who are different from them. Out of survival instinct and fear of extinction, people want to gather/invite more other people into their 'group' to form a 'strong and powerful group' by converting/recruiting many others to 'join' their group, to adopt and support their vision. People also have the tendency of self-righteousness to control/change/condemn/punish others for being different from themselves, which they dislike and disagree with, where they feel that their values, belief and practice are being threatened/intimidated by the other values, beliefs and practices.

  • The idea of 'I'.
  • Attachment and identification onto certain qualities of names and forms to 'support' the existence of a self-identity of 'I'.
  • Possessiveness and pride towards the self-identity and the possessions of 'my life', 'my body', 'my mind', 'my thinking and belief', 'my culture', 'my religion', 'my God', 'my wealth and health', 'my success and happiness', 'my accreditation and reputation', 'my virtues and merits', 'my home', 'my family', 'my parents', 'my partner', 'my relationship', 'my children', 'my friends and relatives', 'my country', 'my world', 'my practice', 'my contribution', 'my teacher', 'my students', and so on.
  • Desire of craving and aversion of "I want 'I' and all that is 'mine' to be like this and I don't want 'I' and all that is 'mine' to be like that."
  • Fear of losing the identity of 'I' and all that is 'mine' the way that 'I' like it to be.
  • Defensiveness/protection towards the identity of 'I' and all that is 'mine'.

"This is my home/my country/my world. I want my home/my country/my world to be like this and not like that. I don't like and don't agree with all the others who are different from me, who's vision is contradicting to my vision of the perfect home/country/world that I want to have. I want everyone to comply to my values of life existence, way of life and conduct, thinking and belief. If they don't, I won't be able to have my home/my country/my world exactly the way that I want it to be. And I don't want that. I don't want these people being here 'polluting' my beloved home/my good country/my beautiful world."

Most minds are outgoing and desire to be engaged in community or worldly affair with very strong self-righteousness towards how the community or the world should be like, where they feel proud towards their thinking and belief and towards their identification with that thinking and belief as who they are, that they believe that they are being 'assigned' with the responsibility to 'save' the world (their world the way that they prefer) by 'disciplining' or 'teaching' others about what is right and wrong/good and bad based on their particular thinking and belief, to eliminate what they think and believe as 'wrong' and 'bad' from the society or the world.

Yoga practice is turning the mind inward, focusing on eliminating ignorance and egoism in this mind, to go beyond all the 'right and wrong'/'good and bad'/'positive and negative', to free this mind from being limited by any thinking and belief, values and practice (including the teachings of yoga) judging all and everything including this body and this mind, or expecting oneself and/or others and the world to be in certain ways that the egoistic mind likes/agrees with/desires based on those thinking and belief, values and practice. It's not about enhancing health and fitness, to look good and feel good, or to create a 'good' world with everyone behaving in the way that we think it should be. Though there's nothing wrong with that aspiration, but all these qualities of names and forms are impermanent, and it's not the goal of yoga practice.

The freedom of being free from being limited or determined by any thinking and belief or identification with qualities of names and forms is unthinkable/unperceivable for the minds that attached strongly onto the thinking and belief to be who they are.

It's everyone's freedom for what they want to do with their life, body and mind, and whether to practice yoga, or not.

Be free.

Wednesday, July 11, 2018

Cause and effect - Consequences of actions

There's neither right nor wrong, neither good nor bad, neither positive nor negative, it's just the law of cause and effect - different consequences of different actions.

The consequences of actions might be pleasant/desirable/agreeable or unpleasant/undesirable/disagreeable.

The different actions and the different consequences of the different actions are just what they are, neither right nor wrong, neither good nor bad, neither positive nor negative.

Something that the mind likes and agrees with, are being judged/categorized as 'right', 'good' and 'positive', while something that the mind dislikes and disagrees with, are being judged/categorized as 'wrong', 'bad' and 'negative' by the mind under the influence of ignorance and egoism.

All these judgments are not the truth of things.

Free the mind from the influence of ignorance and egoism, to see the truth of things as it is, is the yoga and meditation practice. Upon seeing the truth, being free from ignorance and egoism, the mind is undisturbed by all the names and forms that the mind perceives through the senses. There's no problems, dissatisfaction, hurts, unhappiness, sorrow, fear, or suffering.

All the other effects/benefits of the yoga practice are just the by-products which are also impermanent and selfless. By receiving all the impermanent effects/benefits of the yoga practice and coming in contact with/reading/hearing/studying/memorizing the teachings of yoga, or being highly intelligent/educated/accumulating vast knowledge of everything, doesn't guarantee that the mind will be free, if the mind cannot go beyond the limited worldly thinking and belief in the mind that influence how the mind perceives/reacts/judges/expects towards all the names and forms that the mind perceives through the senses, where the mind is unwittingly drowning in the state of restlessness/greed/ambitiousness/dissatisfaction/disappointment/hurts/unhappiness/sorrow/hostility/fear/suffering.

There's nothing wrong when the mind thinks and feels angry/hurt/sad/dissatisfied/unhappy when the mind perceives/experiences something that the mind thinks and believes as 'wrong', 'bad' and 'negative'. Just that this mind is not free. There's no peace.

The mind will not be free from being disturbed by the mind perception of names and forms/what the mind comes in contact with/experiences, until the mind is free from ignorance and egoism, and sees the truth as it is.

Saturday, July 7, 2018

Surrendering desires, intention, expectation

When someone wants to join a 'yoga course' or 'yoga retreat', it's normal that there's a desire, or intention, or expectation towards the experience or the fruit/result of such effort/action being performed.

It's mostly about "What will 'I' get or be benefited from doing this?"

"I am here to learn something that will lead me to freedom and peace."
"I am here to attain peace and happiness."
"I am here to be free from unhappiness and suffering."
"I am here to heal myself (my body, my mind and/or my soul.)"
"I am here to be unwind/relaxed to feel good/peaceful."

And that is also the reason why people keep going for courses and retreats again and again, but the mind is still desiring/expecting to learn 'something that will lead me to freedom and peace', or to attain peace and happiness, or to be free from unhappiness and suffering, or to be healed, or to be unwind/relaxed to feel good/peaceful.

Contemplate on the teaching of "The mind and the body is not I. I am not the body and the mind."

Contemplate on what is intentionlessness. Neither good intention to motivate good actions nor bad intention to motivate bad actions, but good actions are being performed while bad actions are being refrained.

Contemplate on what is "There's no 'I' perform actions, or 'I' receive the fruit of actions." even though there are ceaseless actions and the consequences of actions, or cause and effect arising and passing away being the by-products of the impermanent existence/life maintenance of the body and the restless egoistic mind.

It's the body and the mind performing the practice, and the body and the mind will be receiving the fruit/effect of the practice. And the body and the mind is impermanent and selfless regardless of being in good or bad condition/state. It's not 'I' am performing the practice and 'I' will be receiving the fruit/effect of the practice.

In many of the 'yoga classes', the 'yoga teacher' would ask the students to create a good/kind/positive/happy/meaningful 'intention' or 'aspiration' in their mind before and/or after the class to achieve something that they desire through their efforts of performing the practice or ritual. Such like, "I am awesome!", "I am positive!", "I am strong!", "I am healthy!", "I am good!", "I am enough!", "I am perfect!", "I am happy!", "I am compassionate!", "I am love or I am loved!", "I wish the world be good!", "I wish my children good health!", or "I wish everyone love, peace, joy and happiness!"

It's all about 'I' and what 'I' desire to be/to have, or what 'I' desire other people/the world to be/to have. That's why the mind doesn't progress any further after many years of 'practicing yoga' because the mind is still holding on strongly onto the idea of 'I' as well as 'intention' or 'expectation' that is about gratifying the desire of craving and aversion, because that is what they have been learning/practicing for many years by attending 'yoga classes' regularly. There is something that they desire and something that they don't desire that they hope to be gratified from performing some kinds of action, practice, or ritual. Hoping that everything will be good the way that they like it to be, that they think/believe it should be, and nothing bad.

There's nothing wrong, and it's very good to have good and positive thinking/thoughts than to have bad and negative thinking/thoughts, but it can become a great obstacle on the path of yoga. Even though the mind and the body is getting the momentary effects/benefits of performing the practice regularly, the mind is not free because the mind is still under the influence of ignorance and egoism.

Surrendering any desire/intention/expectation and all that is related to the idea of 'I' and 'my', just do the best while performing actions/practice and allowing the fruit of actions/practice to be what it is, is the teaching and practice of yoga. This is real 'non-attachment' or 'renunciation'.

Some people said, "I don't really know why I am here. I have no intention to be here. I don't know what to expect. But somehow, I'm here." And that 'allows' their minds to be open towards any possibilities, without being bound/limited by any particular desire, intention, expectation, aspiration, anticipation, imagination, or projection.

Once the mind realized selflessness/desireless/non-craving and non-aversion, there's no need to repeatedly attending 'yoga classes', or 'yoga courses', or 'yoga retreats' with the intention/expectation to learn something that will lead one to freedom and peace, or to attain peace and happiness, or to be free from unhappiness and suffering, or to be healed, or to be unwind/relaxed to feel good/peaceful, because this mind is free and peaceful as it is.

There's no "I need to learn something that will lead me to freedom and peace."

There's no "I need to attain peace and happiness."

There's no "I need to be free from unhappiness and suffering."

There's no "I need to heal myself (my body, my mind and/or my soul.)"

There's no "I need to be unwind/relaxed to feel good/peaceful."

Meanwhile, it's not as easy as it says for the mind to be free from ignorance and egoism, or be free from disturbs or suffering, and hence, most minds still need to go to someone/somewhere to learn and practice yoga.

Monday, July 2, 2018

The freedom of being free from desires of craving and aversion

The freedom of being free from the desires of craving and aversion is in the present moment. It's never something to be remembering from the past or something to be redeemed in the future.

It's not bought with wealth or health, love or possession.

It's not acquired by reading lots of books and accumulating vast knowledge of many things.

It's not redeemed by huge amount of good karma from performing good actions or accumulating virtues and merits.

It's not attained by after gone through lots of 'spiritual healing' process.

It's nothing to do with extraordinary supernatural transcendental mystical experience at all.

One can be super wealthy, healthy, loving, possessing lots of possessions, read lots of books, accumulated vast knowledge of many things, and has done huge amount of good actions accumulating good karma, virtues and merits, and feels satisfied/meaningful/happy/proud towards all these 'good', 'positive', 'meaningful' and 'happiness' qualities, but the mind might still be determined by the desires of craving and aversion, there's neither freedom nor peace.

This freedom is unconditional, being undetermined by any qualities of names and forms that is impermanent. It's not about being free from bad condition/difficulties/unpleasantness or being in good condition/easiness/pleasantness.

One doesn't need to go through any 'spiritual healing' process or experience any extraordinary supernatural transcendental experiences to realize this freedom.

There's no craving/clinging/chasing after towards good qualities, good life condition, good health, good relationships/friendships, companionship, togetherness, ability, success, enjoyments, meaningfulness, or happiness.

There's no aversion/fear/pushing away towards bad qualities, difficult life condition, bad health, bad relationships/friendships, lack of companionship, separateness, failure, unpleasantness, meaninglessness, or unhappiness, and towards losing the good qualities, good life condition, good health, good relationships/friendships, companionship, togetherness, ability, success, enjoyments, meaningfulness, or happiness.

There's no craving towards something that is different from what it is now, that is not available now.

There's no clinging towards something that is good now, that is available now.

There's no aversion towards something that is not good, whether it is here or not here now.

There's no aversion towards something that is good now will change and be no longer available.

One can be anywhere, doing something or nothing, and is free and in peace.

There's neither craving towards peace nor aversion towards peacelessness.

One is peaceful as one is.

Be free.

Thursday, June 28, 2018

The world of yoga

People asked us how come we don't run/teach yoga classes and teachers training courses?

Yoga practice is about taming/quieting the restless mind to free the mind from suffering of restlessness and impurities derived from ignorance and egoism by realizing selflessness (birthlessness, deathlessness, attributelessness, namelessness, formlessness) through the practice of dispassion, renunciation, silence, self-inquiry, concentration, meditation, non-attachment, non-identification, non-craving, non-aversion, non-judgment, non-comparison and non-expectation that require a high degree of open-mindedness, right discrimination, intense yearning for liberation, will-power, perseverance, independence, self-control and discipline.

After one learned about the teachings and practice from someone who has direct experience of the teachings and practice, one implements these teachings and practice in everyday life, to free the mind from ignorance and egoism, which is nothing to do with attending regular 'yoga classes' or attending 'yoga teachers training course' to become 'certified professional yoga teacher' to teach/conduct 'yoga classes'.

Most people don't really interested to learn and practice yoga when they are interested in joining 'yoga classes', as they wouldn't/couldn't let go the thinking and belief which they think and believe is who they are (the main hindrance towards the realization of selflessness.) They just want to do some physical exercises to keep fit and be healthy, to feel good and look good. And it's nothing wrong. Everyone has the freedom for what they want and don't want, and what they think and believe.

Most 'yoga classes' are existing mostly as one of the healthy leisure activities for health and fitness enhancement by doing some yoga asana, relaxation and breathing exercises, just like any other personal/group fitness training exercise classes, which is a very healthy activity. It's very good that people would love to do some form of physical exercise regularly for maintaining good health and vitality to enjoy a higher quality of life. And some highly talented people even transformed yoga asana practice into amazing acrobatic performance, it's very inspiring for people to take up some physical fitness training to look good and feel good, and not spending time and energy in unhealthy/unwholesome activities.

The initial objective of 'teachers training courses' is about oneself learning and practicing the teachings of yoga to purify one's mind, to awaken/realize the teacher within to become one's own teacher, to discipline one's mind to be free from ignorance and egoism. It's not about training people who are interested in 'teaching yoga classes' or 'running yoga courses' to become 'certified professional yoga teachers' and issue/authorize them with 'recognized certification' to conduct yoga courses/teach yoga classes according to the different types of teaching style from different types of yoga school. It's training one's own mind to be it's own teacher. Upon self-realization of yoga/oneness/selflessness, one might or might not share the direct experience with others.

'Yoga retreats' are also being 'transformed' into self-pampering/indulgence of the senses getaway that empowers the egoistic desires of carving and aversion, or being 'transformed' into 'mystical healing' camp. Even so, it's neither right nor wrong. That is what most minds like and desire. It really doesn't matter. In the end, yoga is still what it is, whether people are learning and practicing and teaching yoga as it is, or not. The truth won't be affected/contaminated by any add-on/take-out elements, although the creative worldly minded can transform the teachings and practice of yoga into something that they prefer.

Most of the serious yoga practitioners don't really run/teach 'yoga classes', or 'yoga courses', or 'yoga teachers training courses' although they might be teaching yoga to many others. Sharing the teachings and practice of yoga with others doesn't necessarily has to be in the form of conducting yoga classes/courses/retreats. Some might have been teaching 'yoga classes' in the beginning, but after some time, they renounced the worldly social life and activities to concentrate on their own practice, upon realization that renunciation from worldly affair/interaction/activities/relationships is the greatest compassion towards oneself and all beings. Everyone is responsible for their own practice to look after their own mind, to discipline/quiet/purify their own mind, to deal with the consequences of their own ignorance, to become their own teacher, to free their own mind from ignorance, egoism and impurities via their own effort.

Meanwhile, 'yoga teachers training courses' are no longer about learning and practicing yoga to become one's own teacher to be self-independent, to perform self-inquiry, to silent/annihilate the mind to attain self-realization, but the identity and qualification of a 'yoga teacher'/recognition/authorization/certifications/association/commercial value/career value are the drive for conducting/participating yoga teachers training courses.

This is the world of yoga, and there's nothing wrong or bad with it.

Many people think that they like and love yoga, but not really. When come to serious yoga practice, most people would turn away or justify that it is not yoga (the way that they think it should be.) And there's nothing wrong, as all minds take their own pace and own path to evolve and realize.

In the silent meditation retreat that doesn't charge any fees (donate as you like, or even nothing), quite many people would want to runaway or quit after a few days observing silence, for not being able to talk to other people, can't have physical/eye contact with other people, not able to express as they like, can't do what they usually like to do, can't eat what they usually like to eat, no stimulating entertainment for the mind, sleeping on hard bed in basic accommodation, and they have to sit for meditation for more than 10 hours a day, while lots of physical/mental/emotional discomforts arise and random thoughts bubbling up to the surface of the mind. Some people would stay until the retreat finishes, but they don't really observe silence throughout the entire retreat, such like they are still talking/whispering/making signs/interacting with their friends and keeping their phones with them, even though it's not allowed. But, there's nothing wrong with that either, as it's how most worldly minds would behave, out of loneliness, boredom and meaninglessness derived from being refrained from their usual worldly stimulation/activities.

Most minds would 'cheat' to be comfortable and not to be uncomfortable. It's not about what's right and what's wrong. And it's not about how good is one's yoga practice and meditation experience, but it's the ability to confront/deal with all the things that the mind doesn't familiar with, doesn't like and doesn't agree with, while not coming in contact with the things that the mind familiars with, likes and agrees with, being free from craving and aversion, be able to forbear difficulties and unpleasantness equanimously, and free the mind from restlessness/impurities out of ignorance and egoism, that matters most.

The mind won't evolve/progress and keeps running round and round in the loop of worldly ideas/thinking/belief, if it keeps swaying in between craving and aversion, running away from difficulties and unpleasantness and what it doesn't like (the mind perception of the qualities of bad, negative, wrong, meaninglessness and unhappiness,) and chasing after what it likes and desires (the mind perception of the qualities of good, positive, right, meaningfulness and happiness,) even after many years of attending 'yoga classes' and 'yoga retreats' or doing yoga asana and breathing exercises regularly, or possessed many 'yoga certifications' and given 'yoga classes' to many people.

Be free.

Friday, June 22, 2018

How to stop/not feeling hurt in love relationship?

Many people experience hurtful feeling or 'heartbroken' derived from love relationship that is not the way that they like/expect it to be, or it didn't have a happy ever after ending. In the beginning it was all good and happy, but after some time, something changed, it's not the same as before, and it turns sour and bitter, and then completely broken. It's quite painful/hurtful/sorrowful.

Some people would like to know how yoga can help them to be 'healed' from hurts, or how to be free from getting hurt in love relationship, or how to stop/not feeling hurt in love relationship?

The yogic way to be free from all suffering is through understanding/knowing the truth of suffering. It's not about 'healing' as many would think what it is. All suffering derived from ignorance and egoism. Once ignorance and egoism is annihilated, there's nothing or none needs to be 'healed'.

Some people had tried to let go after they learned about the teachings of yoga about letting go, but they found that it's very difficult or impossible to let go. This is because they don't have the correct understanding of what is going on in the mind. Upon understanding what is going on in the mind (all the impermanent selfless modification and changes in the mind and the real cause of pain/hurt/sorrow/bitterness), all the pain/hurt/sorrow/bitterness ceased existing, there's needless to let go anything.

- It's not an obligation or compulsory duty as a human being to must possess one or many love relationship/friendship to live life 'happily' or 'normally'.

One doesn't need to possess one or many love relationship/friendship to live life happily as one is, if the mind is free from being conditioned by worldly/cultural thinking and belief. It's merely part of the worldly/cultural thinking and belief that many people think and believe that everyone must possess one or many love relationship/friendship to live life happily and meaningfully. Most people's values of life, self-worth, success, confidence, happiness and the senses of meaningfulness are very much being determined by having one or many (good) love relationship/friendship, which is unnecessary at all if one's mind is free from ignorance and egoism. If people don't have any love relationship/friendship or they have bad/unhappy/broken love relationship/friendship, they would think and feel bad, unworthy, low confident, failing, depressed, or meaningless about themselves and their life. This is truly unnecessary. One can be friendly to all beings without the need of possessing one or many (good) 'committed love relationship' or 'friendship', and still be happy as one is.

- If we really want to be in a love relationship, we must first learn how to respect everyone and love everyone as they are.

When we feel unhappy/dissatisfied/disappointed/angry/hurt in a love relationship, ask ourselves this, "Do we love them as they are? Are we being possessive towards the people in a relationship with us and have expectation towards everyone about how they should behave or feel?"

Even if we dislike and disagree with this, everyone has the freedom to behave or feel the way that they (want to) behave and feel, even if they are being in a 'committed' relationship with somebody. No one is obliged to respect 'commitment in a relationship'. True relationship where two parties truly love each other and want to stay together out of their own freewill, doesn't have 'commitment' to be respected. Even after being in a relationship, people have the freedom of how they feel and what they want, whether they want to love someone, or stop loving someone, or don't want to love someone, or they changed from being loving/caring to unloving/uncaring, or they want to stay in a relationship or end a relationship, or they merely want to be single again even though they still love the person in the relationship with them, or they want to be with someone else, or they couldn't help themselves being selfish/abusive, or they are suffering from depression/emotional problem/behavior problem/greed/dissatisfaction/lustful desire, and etc.

Meanwhile, we also have the freedom and rights for how we want to feel (whether okay or not okay) and what we want to do with the relationship, to decide whether to let go or continue the 'broken' relationship depending on what is best for everyone, especially when it includes children. There's neither right nor wrong, neither good nor bad in any decision made. If we truly know what we want and don't want, and what is best for everyone, there's no difficulty in making decision and there's no guilt or regret in any decision made. Such like, ending a 'violent/abusive' relationship is better for oneself and the children, without hurtful/revengeful/fearful feelings due to compassion and understanding in oneself, being compassionate towards the person in the relationship with us is suffering from mental/emotional/behavior problem.

- Find out the truth of our feelings of love towards the person in the relationship with us.

Do we really love the person in the relationship with us, or we only love what we like and want from being in the relationship with someone? When 'we' feel angry/disappointed/betrayed/unhappy/hurt in a 'broken' relationship, it's really nothing to do with how the people in a relationship with us behave in the relationship, whether they didn't treat us nicely or they treat us badly, or how they want to feel, whether they feel love or don't feel love for us, or what is their decision/desire, whether to continue staying in or ending the relationship with us. When we feel angry/disappointed/betrayed/unhappy/hurt, it's because 'I don't like/want/agree with this' - Things are not being the way that we want it to be, or the relationship is not going to the direction that we want it to be.

If we truly know what is love, self love, unconditional love and what is relationship, then how we feel won't be determined by how other people behave or feel towards us and whether the relationship is perfect or imperfect. We would love and accept them as they are, even if they don't love us, or don't want to love us, or don't want to be in a relationship with us, or want to love someone else, or want to be in a relationship with someone else. We don't and shouldn't agree with or support or encourage any 'hurtful/wrongful/abusive' treatment or behavior from anyone, but at the same time, we don't have to be influenced or determined by other people's 'hurtful/wrongful/abusive' treatment and behavior. We won't do or say things that would hurt them or those whom they love. We also won't hurt ourselves in order to hurt them or make them feel bad/guilty/disturbed. We would wish everyone (whom we love or don't love) peace and happiness whether they love us/be nice to us, or not.

- Understand/Inquire the root cause of hurtful feeling in love relationship.

All hurtful feelings derived from ungratified desire of craving and aversion in our own mind (not getting what we like and want and getting what we don't like and don't want, and losing what we like and want), it's not caused by bad relationship/bad life experience of bad people/partner/spouse/lover and their wrong doings or bad behavior. It's how the mind reacts towards what it experiences or perceives that it doesn't like, doesn't want and doesn't agree with. It's the responsibility of the mind itself whether to be disturbed or be undisturbed by all the unpleasant/challenging experiences.

- If we truly love the person in the love relationship with us, we won't feel hurt even if they don't love us, or stop loving us, or love someone else.

Most minds/human beings are not perfect, full of ignorance, selfishness and impurities.

We would understand that due to ignorance and egoism, people would behave selfishly and irrationally, and be unloving towards the people in a relationship with them, regardless whether they think they love or don't love the person in the relationship with them. People would do and say things that would cause physical/mental/emotional pain, even when they think they love the person in the relationship with them, not to say especially when they don't really love the person in the relationship with them. We are hurting ourselves if we expect everyone to be perfectly 'good' and 'loving' the way that we think it should be, the way that we want them to be.

- Respecting the law of impermanence.

The nature of minds/feelings/relationship/togetherness is impermanence, forever changing.

Everyone has the freedom and rights to love or not to love someone, or stop loving someone whom they used to love. Feelings will change. What we want in life will change. Life will change. Condition and situation will change. There's nothing wrong with feelings changing from time to time. Most minds/human beings are not free from ignorance and egoism and are identifying strongly/passionately with fleeting feelings as 'who they are', their relationship with everyone and life existence are very much being influenced and determined by those fleeting feelings.

We would let go this relationship and the person in the relationship with us, in peace, if this relationship doesn't work, even when two people still love each other, but couldn't continue the relationship for some good reasons, not to say when one person in the relationship doesn't feel love for the other person and doesn't want to be in the relationship anymore, or prefer to love someone else and be with someone else.

We will wish the person in the relationship with us and the people whom they love/cherish peace and happiness. Ourselves would also have peace and happiness being free from anger, hatred, jealousy, regret, guilt, disappointment, dissatisfaction, or hurts.

- There is nothing wrong and it's okay and we have the freedom and rights to feel angry, disappointed and hurt, but we don't have to, if we understand.

If we feel angry, disappointed and hurt in a broken love relationship (when the relationship turns into something that we don't like and don't want, or the person in the relationship with us doesn't behave or feel the way that we expect/would like them to behave or feel,) it's because we think we love the person in the relationship with us, but we don't really love them. We don't even love ourselves. We only love what we like and want of what we experience/get from being in the love relationship the way that we like and want it to be.

We are the one who is selfish, as we have expectation towards how the relationship should be like and how the person in the relationship with us should feel or behave, or how they should treat us in the way that we like and want. And when we don't get what we like and want, and are getting what we don't like and don't want, or we are losing what we like and want towards the relationship and the love from the person in the relationship with us, we (the egoistic mind) feel betrayed, ill-treated, angry, jealous, dissatisfied, disappointed and hurt.

- Who is feeling hurt?

It's the ego, or the identification of 'I' who feels hurt by the perception of hurtful/wrongful/undeserving experiences under the influence of ignorance and egoism.

If the mind is free from ignorance (knowing the truth of suffering) and egoism (free from the idea of 'I', attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison and expectation), this mind won't perceive hurtful/wrongful/undeserving experiences and react with hurtful feelings. This mind won't be/feel hurt by anything, even if the perceptions of names and forms or life experiences are very unpleasant and challenging, when everything is not the way that we would like it to be.

- Realize selflessness, the truth of 'I' and 'I am hurt by something hurtful'.

'I' and 'I am hurt by something hurtful' doesn't exist upon the realization of the truth. There's no 'I' existing. There's no one existing to be hurt, or experiencing hurt, or feeling hurt. There's no one needs to be healed from hurt. All experiences are just what they are, neither hurtful nor not hurtful, upon the annihilation of ignorance and egoism. If anyone still feels hurt by something being perceived as 'hurtful', and believes that 'I' need to be healed from hurt, it's due to ignorance and egoism.

- Realize non-separateness or oneness of unconditional love.

One doesn't need to rely/depend on receiving love/relationship/friendship/companionship/acknowledgement from anyone (not even 'God') to feel loved/confident/complete/satisfied/meaningful, if one realized non-separateness/oneness of unconditional love, without discrimination of self and not-self/others, conditions, possessiveness, attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, judgment, comparison, or expectation. There's no unhappiness, anger, hatred, jealousy, disappointment, dissatisfaction, or hurt. It doesn't matter we have or don't have any love relationship, and whether the love relationship turns out well or not well. One is still happy and peaceful as one is.

If we don't know what is love or how to love, we will only end up unwittingly and ceaselessly hurting ourselves and those whom we think we love very much, especially those in a relationship with us. It's because we don't love ourselves and we don't love those whom we think we love. We don't love anyone, not even 'God', we only love the desires of what we like and want.

Be free.

Sunday, June 17, 2018

Good life?

Despite a small group of people in the world of ignorance, greed and selfishness who would wish for bad condition and situation in the world so that they can make profits/benefits out of the bad condition and situation of the world and other people's suffering, painful sorrow, difficulties and hardships, most people would appreciate and be grateful and wish for good life, good condition and situation, good relationships and enjoyments for everyone.

There's nothing wrong with joy and happiness, good life, good condition and situation, good relationships and enjoyments, just that it can easily become one of the great hindrances for those who are on the path of yoga to progress towards the highest aim of yoga of transcending the mind and the yearning for liberation is no longer the highest motivation for performing the yoga practice and would eventually disappear from the mind completely, unwittingly, where performing yoga practice is only one of the healthy leisure activities in life.

"Oh, what a wonderful life and beautiful world we have here. Good family, good friends, good condition, good activities and plenty of good enjoyments. We should just enjoy all the good things that we have as much as we can. We should make use of the opportunity of good life, good condition and situation to do so many things in this world. Why bother about all those unpleasant yoga practice about silencing/transcending the mind of letting go this beautiful wonderful happy world?"

Everything is impermanent. Because of the impermanent nature of everything, we should appreciate the precious moments of good life, good condition and situation, good relationships and enjoyments even though knowing that it's impermanent, that it will change and pass away. And this statement is not something negative, or depressing, or bitter at all. It's the truth of everything.

If people realize the fleeting impermanence of everything, it could inspire them to work diligently towards transcending the mind perception of worldly life existence even though they are enjoying good life, good condition and situation, good relationship and enjoyments that they know all are impermanent. If there's no attachment towards all the impermanent good enjoyments and happy joyful moments, it's fine. There's no suffering when impermanence strikes. But, when there is attachment and suffering arise, how many people would cry, "OH! Dear God/Guru/anyone, help me please! Save me please! Take away all these suffering from me. I don't want them. Please bring back the joy and happiness to me!"

Suffering, painful sorrow, bad condition and situation, disappointment, bad relationships, difficulties and hardships are not something negative, depressing or bitter at all, it's indeed the great motivation/inspiration for people to let go the world (regardless good or bad condition/happy or unhappy experiences), to be determined to perform yoga practice to transcend the mind perception of an impermanent selfless worldly life existence of names and forms, and be free from the suffering of restlessness swaying in between satisfaction and dissatisfaction, happiness and unhappiness, due to endless desires of craving and aversion waiting to be gratified under the influence of ignorance, egoism and impurities.

"The world is unreal." - The teachings of yoga.

This is not about shunning/condemning/pushing away/denying good life, good condition and situation, good relationships, activities and enjoyments, but to remind ourselves not to be drowned in impermanent pleasurable good condition, activity and enjoyment until we forgo the highest aim of yoga. Though it's everyone's freedom for what they want to do with their life, body and mind.

Be free.

Saturday, June 16, 2018

In the end, it's what matters most to oneself

For some people, to be able to contribute to humanity, to help and serve other beings selflessly is what matters most.

For some people, to be able to think and move freely, to go everywhere freely is what matters most.

For some people, to have peace and harmony is what matters most.

For some people, to have joy and happiness is what matters most.

For some people, to be able to love and be loved is what matters most.

For some people, to have good health is what matters most.

For some people, to have a shelter from harsh weather and be free from hunger and thirst is what matters most.

For some people, to have a complete and happy family is what matters most.

For some people, to have a successful career that support a stable income and comfortable living is what matters most.

For some people, to have one or many good friends to support each other is what matters most.

For some people, to be able to achieve all their ambitions, to do whatever they like to do and enjoy whatever they want to enjoy is what matters most.

For some people, to accumulate wealth and power is what matters most.

For some people, they want to have all and everything, if possible.

For some people they don't know what they want or what matters most.

For some people, they thought they know what they want and what matters most, but not really.

There's neither right nor wrong, it's just about what matter to oneself in the end.

For those who practice yoga and meditation, to live in the present being free from desires of craving and aversion, to free the mind from ignorance and egoism and the suffering of the consequences of ignorance and egoism, is what matters most.

For many people, "If people don't kill themselves out of tiredness, restlessness, unhappiness, depression, dissatisfaction, disappointment, loneliness, boredom, hurts, guilt, regret, painful sorrow and meaninglessness, and be grateful for being alive and appreciating life, family and friends, be positive keep on fighting for the values of life or what they think is 'humanity', try to create or contribute to a 'better world', and be optimistic never give up searching for happiness, satisfaction and meaningfulness through engaging in 'constructive' ideas/objects/relationships/friendships/activities in this impermanent worldly life existence, it's good enough for existing as a 'human being'."

There's nothing wrong with passionate worldly desires/ambitions/relationships/activities, as it's what most people think and believe what (lively and meaningful) life existence is about. In the end, it's what matters most to oneself.

Meanwhile, for those who sincerely want to practice yoga and realize yoga, silencing/annihilating the mind to attain Self-realization to know the truth of the mind/thyself/what the mind thinks is 'I', or liberation from ignorance/suffering, is what matters most.

Stop feeding worldly passionate thinking/beliefs/ideas/objects/ambitions/social interactions/activities/relationships/desires to the mind, to annihilate the idea of 'I' existing in a selfless worldly life existence of the objects of the senses of impermanent names and forms, is the essence of the traditional yoga practice. For many people, including yoga practitioners and yoga teachers, would perceive this kind of yoga practice of dispassionate/disinterest towards 'worldly life of ambitions, enjoyments, relationships, interactions and activities', and renouncing 'worldly social affair and family life' as 'lifelessness' or 'meaninglessness', and they would not like to practice 'this kind' of yoga.

One can think and believe that one has been practicing many different types of yoga practice for some time or a long time, and receiving the many benefits of the regular and persist 'yoga practice', but at the same time, the mind is still very much engaging/entangling in the passionate worldly life of worldly affairs/objects/activities/thinking/beliefs/ideas/ambitions/relationships/desires under the influence of egoism of attachment and identification towards certain qualities of names and forms, then this mind is not free, even though one might feel good, happy and satisfied with having certain desirable achievements and relationships in the present, upon coming in contact with the qualities of names and forms that the mind likes and desires, and not coming in contact with the qualities of names and forms that the mind doesn't like and doesn't desire.

Some yoga practitioners would think and believe that they are quite 'dispassionate' and 'being unattached' towards all the worldly affairs/contacts/objects/ideas/relationships/activities/interactions while they are living/mingling among the society/community and actively engaging in 'what/how all 'good, normal and healthy' human beings do in everyday life.'

If one wants to know the truth of one's mind, one can practice serious solitude and seclusion for at least 5 to 6 years, being away from all kinds of worldly affairs/contacts/ideas/objects/activities/relationships/interactions, and one will see the truth of this mind. Fear, doubt, loneliness, emptiness, boredom and meaninglessness kick in and most minds will want to run away from the practice of solitude and seclusion after a prolonged period of time due to the under current of ignorance and subtle attachment and identification towards worldly life of names and forms. They will tell themselves and others that it's not necessary to practice solitude and seclusion as part of the yoga practice, and it's better and more meaningful to practice yoga of living a 'good, normal and healthy' everyday life just like all the other 'normal' human beings, building relationships and accumulating friendships, enjoying and engaging in worldly interactions and activities, mingling into the society to 'serve other beings', do some work to make a living, do some yoga and breathing exercises, do some meditation practice, do some healthy recreation activities, go for holidays from time to time to unwind.

"Helping/sharing with others makes me happy, good family relationships and friendships makes me happy, being with family and good friends makes me happy, experiencing or doing this makes me happy. They give me the sense of meaningfulness in life existence." What happens when all the 'names and forms' that make me happy and give me the sense of meaningfulness changed into something else and is no longer available?

Some people had the ability and opportunity to do all the things that they wanted to do, went and travel everywhere that they wanted to go, met with many other people and experienced many different cultures, obtained the vast knowledge of many things in this world, attained great success in their career and had a nice family and friends circle and wide social networks, being admired by many people in the world, had a comfortable lifestyle, but still, the mind was not free from suffering.

Be free.

Tuesday, May 8, 2018

Getting benefits from doing yoga exercises regularly but didn't eliminate ignorance, egoism and impurities?

What it's like if we are getting many health and fitness benefits from doing the yoga exercises regularly, but we didn't eliminate ignorance, egoism and impurities?

It's like a beautiful garden with lots of nice fragrant flowers blooming and filling the air with really nice fragrance, but there were also smells of cat shits/pees and decapitated rotting dead body parts of birds and frogs that the cats killed for fun and left behind in the garden here and there.

It's everyone's freedom for what they want to do with that.

Some say, "It's okay. I love cats. I don't mind the smells of cat shits/pees and decapitated rotting dead body parts of birds and frogs that the cats killed for fun. I can still smelling the fragrance of the flowers. The nice fragrance of the flowers can 'sort of' cover those smells. I don't need to do anything." That's their choice of freedom.

Some say, "The nice fragrance of the flowers don't really cover or remove the smells of cat shits/pees and rotting dead body parts of the birds and frogs killed by the cats and being left behind in the garden. The air is filled with the mixture of the fragrance from the flowers and the smells from the consequences of cats' behavior. The fragrance of the flowers is no longer a nice fragrant, but it's contaminated by the smells of the consequences left behind by the cats. What is there to be enjoying about? I have to clean up all these existing cat shits, wash away the pees, and take away all the dead body parts of birds and frogs, and then I'll do my best to keep the cats away as much as possible. Then I can truly enjoy the nice pure fragrance of the flowers in the garden." This is similar to the essential purification process of performing the yoga practice.

It's not so much about attaining and accumulating the benefits of the yoga exercises, and making the body and mind feels good momentarily after doing the yoga exercises, or accumulating virtues and merits by doing lots of 'good actions', but more important, is to clean up the ceaseless generation and accumulation of 'rubbish' in the mind - The annihilation of ignorance, egoism and impurities.

Huge amount of accumulated virtues and merits are nothing if ignorance, egoism and impurities are ceaselessly 'occupying' and 'contaminating' the mind.

Be free.

Thursday, May 3, 2018

Unattached towards any thinking and belief, including the teachings of yoga

Why is it important to be unattached towards any thinking and belief, including the teachings of yoga?

We all need to make some unavoidable important decisions to suit the impermanent changes from time to time in our life. We will also come in contact with other people who have different thinking, belief and practice from us, from time to time, living in this space of the universe, whether we like it, or not.

If we attached strongly onto a particular thinking and belief in our mind that put importance and unimportance onto certain action, reaction, behavior and values, then we might have expectation towards ourselves and/or others to live life or behave in the way according to that thinking and belief. We will be very dissatisfied and disappointed with ourselves and/or other people if we or other people don't live life or behave exactly in the way according to that thinking and belief. We might easily be disturbed or offended by other people's different thinking and belief that put importance and unimportance onto certain action, reaction, behavior and values that are very different from ours. We would want to argue about whose thinking and belief is better or trying to persuade other people to take up our thinking and belief that we think is better, that we think is correct, that we feel very proud of. There's disturbance, dissatisfaction, disappointment, frustration, irritation, anger, hatred, offensiveness, defensiveness, hurts, fear and worry in the mind due to couldn't accept or allow or respect other people to be different from us.

Due to ignorance, our perception or understanding towards the teachings of yoga might not necessarily be something that we can agree with, like or want to practice.

If we attached strongly onto the teachings of yoga based on how we perceive or understand the teachings, we might not want to practice yoga if we have certain disagreements or dislikes towards the teachings of yoga that we think is wrong or incorrect because it is contradicted with our own existing thinking/belief/practice. Or, we might want to change yoga into something else that we can agree with, like and want to practice. And if our minds agree with, like and want to practice the teachings of yoga as it is, then there might be inner conflict arise when we need to make a decision for something that might go against the teachings of yoga. We would feel very disturbed, confused, guilty or regret for being unable to practice yoga 'perfectly' or 'exactly' in accordance to the teachings of yoga as it is. And then, the impure egoistic mind that attached strongly onto the teachings of yoga might unwittingly judging others, both yoga practitioners or non-yoga practitioners, out of self-righteousness based on what the mind thinks it knows about the teachings of yoga.

It doesn't mean that if we don't attach onto the teachings of yoga, then we don't need to respect the teachings of yoga and do whatever we like, even if it goes against the teachings of yoga. We should do our best to practice yoga as it is according to the ancient teachings of yoga, if the life condition and situation allows us to do that. But, life is impermanent.

There will always be some challenging unfavorable circumstances that we need to deal with from time to time. If we attached strongly onto the teachings of yoga, expecting ourselves to be able to follow 'perfectly' all the teachings of yoga to live life and practice yoga as it 'supposed' to be all the time, then we might not be able to continue our yoga practice or will give up the path of yoga entirely, when we think we can't or it's wrong to make adjustments in our life or in our practice to adapt and accommodate the challenging condition and situation that is also impermanent.

It's about the inner stamina, strength and flexibility of patience, perseverance, determination, acceptance, forbearance and tolerance to accept the reality that is not necessarily in favor to our preferred way of life or our yoga practice in accordance to the teachings of yoga as it is, and be able to make suitable momentary adjustments to adapt and accommodate any challenging conditions or situations that arise from time to time in our life and in our practice. But, with correct understanding that these adjustments are also impermanent, as well as do our best to respect the teachings of yoga as it is if the condition permits. Yoga is still what it is, whether we need to make some adjustments, or not. It doesn't change into something else, whether people agree or disagree with it, or whether people practice yoga as it is, or not.

It's about being compassionate, respectful and non-discriminating towards this life, this body and this mind that is not perfectly the way that we would like it to be and towards others who are different from us, who have different thinking, belief and practice that put different importance and unimportance onto certain action, reaction, behavior and values that are different from ours. Being undisturbed or unoffended by other people's thinking, belief, practice, values, behavior, action and reaction that are different from ours. Being undisturbed or unoffended by our impure perception/understanding of the teachings of yoga that our mind disagree with, doesn't like and doesn't want to practice.

Non-attachment is about being able to adjust, to adapt and accommodate any unforeseen circumstances of challenging condition and situation that arise in our life and our practice, whether it's about the physical/mental condition, livelihood, sickness, injury, aging, or any issues with family/neighbourhood/environment/weather/religion/area/getting the basic needs for life maintenance, that need us to make some necessary adjustments on the path of yoga whether in terms of livelihood, or performing our own yoga practice, or teaching yoga to other people, to adapt and accommodate the impermanent changes of challenging condition and situation.

It allows us to continue our practice in a slightly different way than what we would like it to be, but at least we didn't give it up just because we think it's impossible to practice yoga under certain challenging condition or situation, due to we think we must follow exactly the teachings of yoga as it is, that we think we can't or it's wrong/impossible to make any adjustments. More importantly, it allows the mind to be opened to inquire/investigate/experience the truth of the teachings of yoga, without blind-believing or blind-following.

Be free.

Wednesday, May 2, 2018

Root out pride and arrogance

For some reasons people are aspired to attain or possess certain qualities in order to be eligible or qualified to feel proud and arrogant towards themselves and/or others.

People are being encouraged to cultivate pride and arrogance as well, as somehow they think it's very good/important to be able to be proud and arrogant about something that they think it deserves to be proud of, that would make them feel somehow more stand out, unique and better than some others.

"Do something and be someone that make yourself and other people feel proud of."

People like to encourage and support other people to stay motivated and to be better by telling people, "I'm so proud of you!" People grew up with the thinking/belief/values/aspiration of need to be attaining or possessing certain qualities to feel proud of themselves and also make other people feel proud of them.

"I want to be proud of myself. I want other people to be proud of me."

People would feel inferior, bad, depressed and disappointed towards themselves when they think they haven't or couldn't attain or possess certain qualities that allow themselves and others to feel proud of.

Those who want to attain liberation must contemplate on all these worldly social cultural thinking/belief/expectation, to see the truth of it. All these are nothing but the play of egoism - It's merely the ego that needs to feel proud and needs others to feel proud of 'I' in order to feel satisfied, loved, motivated, appreciated, acknowledged, good, happy, confident and meaningful.

Meanwhile, some people think and believe that they are not at all proud and arrogant, as they are aware of the downside of pride and arrogance, and they don't want to be associated with pride and arrogance, but they aren't aware of themselves are already being over-powered by pride and arrogance. Without awareness, people can be proud of the thinking of 'I am not a proud and arrogant person. I practice humility. I am very humble.'

In Yoga, pride and arrogance is the by-product of egoism born out of ignorance. It's one of the great obstacles that hinders the mind to be opened to learn and practice yoga and meditation, to inquire the truth.

If we sincerely want to learn and practice yoga and meditation, we need to first learn how to identify pride and arrogance and free the mind from it. But, it's really not easy for people to let go pride and arrogance, as it is a part of their strong identity of themselves.

Even many 'graduated/certified/qualified/experienced yoga teachers' are being proud and arrogant towards themselves for having attended one or many 'yoga teachers training courses' attaining one or many certifications or qualifications in this or that, that they had studied and practiced yoga under one or many 'famous' or 'popular' yoga teachers/Gurus/schools, as well as their years of experience in practicing and teaching yoga, or they have recruited certain numbers of yoga students, or they had taught in certain yoga schools or yoga centres or yoga festivals or yoga conventions, or they had participated in some 'yoga competitions' and won certain awards, or they have done such and such charity works, or they have been contributing articles of yoga or being 'interviewed' in such and such magazine or social media, and so on. Most people would justify that their intention of getting all the attention, admiration and publicity is for promoting yoga to more people in the world. But, how pure and true is that?

Two of the common characteristics of pride and arrogance that exist in many yoga practitioners who already have been practicing certain style(s) of yoga for some time, or 'graduated/certified/qualified/experienced yoga teachers' who have attained many certifications/qualifications/experiences from attending different yoga courses and have been teaching 'yoga classes' or 'yoga courses' for some time :-

"I am experienced/qualified/knowledgeable/advanced yoga practitioner/yoga teacher. I know enough and I have long time experience in practicing/teaching yoga. I don't need someone to lecture me about yoga/yoga practice/teaching yoga, or tell/teach me the many things that I already knew."

"This is different from the yoga that I have been learning/practicing/teaching for many years. I don't agree with this, I don't like this. I don't want this."

When there is such pride and arrogance, the mind is closed, being unable to be opened to inquire/investigate the truth of something that is beyond what the mind thinks it knows, or something that is different from or contradicted with the existing familiar practice, thinking and belief in the mind, that the mind doesn't know or doesn't familiar with. We won't/can't learn anything that we actually didn't know but we think and believe that we already knew very well, even if there's a great teacher or great teaching in front of us.

Be free.

Sunday, April 29, 2018

The basic teachings and practice of yoga vedanta

  • Let go the worldly/personal identification with the body and mind as 'I'. The body and mind is not me, I am not the body or the mind.
  • Free the mind from pride and arrogance, superiority or inferiority towards any quality of names and forms that the mind identifying with as 'I' and 'mine'. One's thinking, belief, culture, education, religion, spirituality, gender, nationality, profession, knowledge, talents, skills, ideas, ability, achievement, family, relationship, friendship, marital status, social status, contribution, experiences, and etc. All these names and forms are not me, I am not all these names and forms.
  • Allow the mind to be opened towards what it knows and doesn't know, do not blind-believe or blind-disbelieve. Undetermined or undisturbed by what the mind disagrees with, dislikes or doesn't want.
  • Unattached towards any ideas, thinking and belief, including the existing ideas, information, thinking and belief in the mind coming from somewhere and everywhere.
  • Inquire the truth of everything, including all the teachings of yoga coming from different teachers or Gurus and reading books as well as all the existing worldly/social/cultural/religious thinking and belief in the mind that influence how the mind thinks, judges, acts and reacts.
  • Inquire what is this 'I', what is the ego and egoism.
  • Inquire what is suffering and the cause of suffering.
  • Unattached towards the physical body, the appearance, the physical health and fitness condition, the pleasantness and unpleasantness, the limitation, the ability and disability, the achievement and the impermanent changes.
  • Unattached towards the function of the mind, the state of the mind, the thinking, the belief, the thought activities, the mind perception of names and forms through the senses, the feelings and emotions, the known and unknown, the likes and dislikes, the agreements and disagreements, the desirable and undesirable.
  • Free the mind from the past memories and future imaginations. Train the mind to stay in the present as much as possible, effortlessly, gently, patiently, via persist practice without force.
  • Free the mind from craving and aversion.
  • Free the mind from judgment, comparison and expectation towards oneself and others.
  • Inquire what is the mind and what is going on in the mind.
  • Inquire the truth of 'hurts', 'unhappiness', 'grief', 'painful sorrow', 'dissatisfaction', 'frustration', 'irritation', 'disappointment', 'anger', 'hatred', 'low self-esteem/low confidence', 'guilt', 'regret', and all kind of impurities, including what the mind perceives as 'happy' and 'positive' feelings and emotions.
  • Be kind to the body and the mind, take care of the well-being of the body and mind, accepting the body and the mind as it is even though they are not perfect.
  • Purifying and rendering the mind pure, focus, balance, calm and quiet via the observation of Yama and Niyama and different types of Kriya, Yoga Asana, Pranayama, Pratyahara, Dharana, Dhyana practice, without attachment towards the practice or expectation towards the fruit of the practice, allow Samadhi to happen naturally when the practice is matured, intentionlessly, spontaneously and effortlessly.
  • Filtering inputs and outputs of the mind. Quiet and silent the mind.
  • Reduce or refrain from unnecessary worldly affairs, social networking, relationship building, mingling, interactions and activities, that give rise to ceaseless desires, restlessness and impurities.
  • Adopt a simple and quiet lifestyle, looking after the basic needs of the life maintenance of the body and mind, and divert maximum attention, importance, effort, time and energy into maintaining internal and external purity/cleanliness, quieting the thought current, developing one-pointedness and sharpening the intellect for the quest of the truth, to free the mind from ignorance, egoism and impurities.
  • Abandon or let go self-harm, superstitious thinking and belief, blind-believing, blind-following, politics, arguments, debates, discussions, conflicts, envy/jealousy, discrimination, bias, all kind of corruptions, gossips, vain talks, boasting, story telling, lying, plotting, scheming, manipulating, exploiting, worrying, anticipating, day dreaming, worldly/spiritual ambitions of gaining attention/support/fame/respect/title/power/acknowledgment/authorization, petite-mindedness, mischievousness, evilness, violence, worldly indulgence of the senses, physical/mental addictions, drugs abuse, intoxication, sexual misconducts, hypocrisy/untruthfulness in daily conducts and relationships with others, the desire to control/expect relationships/things/life/the world to be the way that 'I' like it to be, and all kind of conducts/desires driven by passion and lust.
  • Develop self-independence, self-control, self-discipline, self-inquiry, self-introspection, awareness, dispassion, right discrimination, correct understanding, right livelihood, straightforwardness, truthfulness, simplicity, patience, perseverance, determination, acceptance, tolerance, forbearance, forgiveness, adjustment, adaptation and accommodation.
  • Unattached towards all actions (action and inaction) and the fruit of actions. There's no 'I' am performing actions or 'I' am the receiver of the fruit of actions. There's no "I am good person doing good actions and will be receiving goodness in return."
  • There is neither 'I' am selfish nor 'I' am unselfish. There's no 'I' am selfless or 'I' perform selfless actions, or 'I' receive the fruit of selfless actions.
  • Inquire the truth of all and everything - Impermanence and Selflessness.
  • Inquire the many names but all are ONE - 'silence', 'liberation', 'compassion', 'unconditional love', 'unconditional peace', 'inaction in actions', 'selflessness', 'egolessness', 'I-lessness', 'non-duality', 'oneness', 'non-separateness', 'fearlessness', 'intentionlessness', 'neither good nor bad', 'neither positive nor negative', 'attributelessness', 'namelessness', 'formlessness', 'birthlessness and deathlessness', 'beginninglessness and endlessless', 'beyond the thinking mind', 'beyond the worldly/social/cultural/religious thinking and belief', 'beyond the mind perception of names and forms', 'beyond pleasantness and unpleasantness', 'beyond happiness and unhappiness', 'beyond positive and negative', 'beyond meaningfulness and meaninglessness', 'beyond suffering and end of suffering', 'beyond good and bad karma'.
  • Unconditional love and peace, compassion and the ability to forgive and let go what the mind perceives as 'bad', 'wrong', 'negative', 'undeserving', 'hurtful', 'sorrowful', 'painful' and so on, are nothing to do with the impermanent and selfless physical conditions, appearance, strength, flexibility, stamina, limitations, ability and disability, the impermanent and selfless states of the mind, the mind perception of different qualities of names and forms, the intelligence, pleasant/unpleasant life experiences, or the condition and situation of the world. Identifying ourselves with any quality of names and forms that the mind perceives as 'good', 'positive', 'meaningful', 'rightful', 'healthy' and so on, doesn't guarantee that the mind is free.
  • Identifying as 'good people' being 'good' and doing 'good', also doesn't guarantee that the mind is free from ignorance, egoism, impurities, disturbance, unhappiness, loneliness, meaninglessness, dissatisfaction, disappointment, unhappiness, anger, hatred, jealousy, hurts, fear and worry, and all kinds of suffering.
  • Do our best making use of this life existence of the body and mind for bringing peace to oneself or the world without attachment, identification, judgment, comparison, or expectation. Serve, love, give, purify, meditate, realize, and let it go. 
  • Peace is in this present moment when the mind is free from ignorance, egoism and impurities. It's not being left behind in the past or to be found in the future. It's not in the next life or in another life form.
  • Inquire the truth of all the teachings and practice mentioned here.

It's everyone's freedom whether they want to take up this practice or the teachings, or not.

Be free.

Friday, April 27, 2018

Not the kind of yoga retreat that most people expect it to be

We have been running yoga retreats in Langkawi for the past nine years. The retreat evolves over the years as we learn, as well as it changes to adapt the different condition and situation according to the circumstances that exist from time to time which are not in our control.

The main objective of running the retreats here is to allow those who truly want to learn and practice yoga to come here for a few days up to a few weeks to learn and practice yoga and meditation as much as possible, so that they can take away the basic understanding and direct experience of the teachings and practice of yoga, which allowing them to practice yoga and meditation practically and independently when they go home back into their everyday life, wherever they live, under any conditions or situations.

We don't have intention to create an 'out of the world' place with holiday resort environment to pamper the guests with hotel customer service and resort facilities or pleasurable enjoyment and indulgence for the senses, to empower or gratify the egoistic desire of craving and aversion of the mind, to make the minds feel pampered, deserving, satisfied, good and happy momentarily by giving the mind maximum pleasurable enjoyments that it likes and wants.

We do our best to provide a simple, clean and tidy place for performing the yoga and meditation practice, and give maximum guidance to the people who sincerely want to learn and practice yoga and meditation to know what is going on in one's mind, to transcend suffering, to free the mind from the cause of suffering - ignorance, egoism and impurities.

Non-commercial yoga and meditation practice is not what most people expect it to be. Most of the time, it's not necessarily comfortable or fun. Instead, there is a lot of persevered ongoing hard work and the purification process is quite challenging for many, that many people would give up easily if they don't have the basic correct understanding of the teachings of yoga and lack of determination, patience and forbearance to endure or withstand difficulties or discomforts that arise during the purification process to eliminate egoism and impurities, to transcend the mind perception of an impermanent and selfless worldly life existence of names and forms.

Most people would think and imagine, or expect and desire 'yoga practice' and 'yoga retreat' as one kind of pleasurable leisure health and fitness activity and enjoyment, to momentary unwind from stress, exhaustion and burnout, or to escape worldly everyday life and environment that is not necessarily the way that they like it to be, and hence, many of those who provide or conduct 'yoga classes' or 'yoga retreats' also make use of the trend/demand of 'yoga classes' and 'yoga retreats' to provide 'yoga classes' and 'yoga retreats' that are being marketed as a 'pleasurable leisure health and fitness activity and enjoyment in an out of the world environment' to meet up with the expectation and desire of many people.

Those who expect 'yoga retreats' that provide 'pleasurable leisure health and fitness activity and enjoyment' in an 'out of the world' holiday resort environment with all kinds of convenient service and facilities other than the basic facilities, and expecting to be receiving hotel customer service and pleasurable enjoyment and indulgence of the senses will be very disappointed when they attend the retreats here. This is definitely not the kind of 'yoga retreat' that they expect/desire it to be.

People who attend the retreats here need to 'work' on purifying one's mind, letting go egoism, and to 'endure' any challenging discomfortable or undesirable condition or situation that may or may not arise, that is not necessarily the way that they like it to be. In the end, the mind realized that the disturbance arise in the mind perceiving all kinds of challenging condition and situation is due to the reaction of craving and aversion in the mind itself, it's nothing to do with the condition and situation being what it is. "I don't agree with this. I don't like this. I don't want this."

Only those who sincerely want to learn and practice yoga and meditation to know one's mind, to transcend the mind perception of names and forms will 'appreciate' this kind of retreat that guides the mind to go beyond the gratification of the desire of craving and aversion of "only want to enjoy pleasurable indulgence of the senses as much as possible and don't want to have any difficulties or discomforts", but 'working' diligently to render the mind calm and quiet to allow the mind to see the ignorance, egoism and impurities in one's mind, while living in the world as we are, dealing with everyday live conditions and situations that are not necessarily the way that we like it to be, that is not in our intention or control of how we like it to be.

We don't expect everyone would appreciate this kind of yoga retreat or yoga practice. It's everyone's freedom for what they want to do with their life, body and mind, or how they perceive yoga and yoga practice.

This life is impermanent and it's closer to death every moment. This is the truth of all living beings. Death is not something negative, bad, sad, sorrowful, inauspicious, fearful, or horrible, it doesn't matter what is the scientific cause of death, or how and when it happens. Whether some die without much prolonged physical/mental painful suffering, while some die after much prolonged physical/mental painful suffering, it's still death, neither good death nor bad death. The only difference is whether the mind is able to let go in peace, or not, confronting the process or moments of death.

Be happy.

Thursday, April 12, 2018

Expectation

Though it's just a simple word, 'expectation' is one of the greatest influence in the human minds towards almost all and everything in the impermanent and selfless life existence. It gives motivation, hope and the sense of achievement and meaningfulness to many people.

Expectation from oneself towards oneself, towards the physical and mental ability or achievement, one's effort and the outcome of one's effort, and all kinds of relationship/connection with different beings and things.

Expectation from oneself towards other people, the society, the environment, or the world, to be the way that how one would like it to be, that one thinks and believes how it should be, and not to be the way that one thinks it shouldn't be.

One might also being bound/determined by expectation from other people/the society towards oneself and unwittingly want to meet up with the expectation from other people/the society towards oneself, in order to earn liking, love, attention, respect, praise, compliment, agreement, acknowledgement, support, friendship, companionship, and etc, from other people/the society.

To many people, 'expectation' is a positive necessity or important motivation for making progress/improvement or to excel in the life of human beings. People think and believe that human beings need to have certain degrees of expectation from oneself and/or others to push oneself and/or other people around to progress, improve or excel in everything of life, throughout the different life stages of childhood, adulthood, parenthood, middle age, old age, education, learning, building social network, friendships, relationships, career, family, or contribution towards the society, the world, or life existence, and so on.

To those who see the truth of the mind perception of a worldly life existence that is impermanent and selfless, 'expectation' is unnecessary when the mind is free from ignorance and egoism, as 'expectation' is merely part of the egoism of attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, judgment and comparison that relates to restlessness, dissatisfaction, disappointment, unhappiness, frustration, anger, hurt, greed, fear and worry, which leads to the accumulation of physical and mental tension that gives rise to tension/stress related physical and mental illness, abusive behavior towards oneself and others, family and relationships problems, social problems, and etc.

Those who have some basic correct understanding towards life existence that is impermanent and selfless, who know the ability and limitation of their body and mind, who are endowed with dispassion, non-attachment, non-identification, non-craving/aversion, non-judgment, non-comparison and intentionlessness, being unattached towards the actions and the fruit of actions, they don't need any 'expectation' from oneself and/or others to motivate or push them to perform necessary and wholesome actions, to do good or improve.

They don't have expectation towards other people, life, the society, or the world, 'hoping' or 'expecting' that everyone and everything to be in certain ways, but they just do their best according to the ability and limitation of the body and mind, make use of the available knowledge, skill and opportunity to perform necessary and wholesome actions through the body and mind for the well-being of oneself and/or others, but they allow the result of their actions or efforts to be there as it is, being undetermined by their actions/efforts or the fruit of their actions/efforts.

In the worldly egoistic thinking and behavior pattern, there is intention to inspire or motivate one to perform actions, then expectation towards the fruit of actions comes along. If the mind can realize the truth and be free from this worldly egoistic thinking and behavior pattern, that's a great liberation, even though the life existence of the body and mind is still bound by the law of nature - Cause and effect, impermanence and selflessness. If the mind doesn't realize this and is determined by this worldly egoistic thinking and behavior pattern, then one is not free, even though one can attain all the relationships and things that one would like to have in life, as one will always be disturbed/dissatisfied/disappointed by something that is not the way that how one thinks it should be, that one doesn't like, doesn't want and doesn't agree with.

Ask ourselves honestly about what is the motivation/intention that makes us think and feel that we need to have 'something' or 'someone'. And once we have that 'something' or 'someone', naturally we have expectation towards that 'something' or 'someone' to 'deliver' what we expect to be 'getting', to 'fulfill' or 'gratify' the motivation/intention/reason/desire of why we need or want to have that 'something' or 'someone'. What are we so afraid of if we don't have that 'something' or 'someone' being there existing in our life, or if we lose that 'something' or 'someone'?

"Do good, because it makes you feel good and happy."
"Give, and you will receive more in return."
"Do good, and goodness will return to you."
"Be nice to other people, other people will be nice to you too."
"I did this for you/I gave you this/I helped you, you should be grateful and thankful."
"I help you, you help me too."
"Be generous and help other people, and people will return your generosity and help."
"Pray to God, and God will bless you with what you desire."

Why not just be kind, be friendly, be generous, be helpful and be supportive, or just pray to God, without any intention/motivation/expectation?

Those who know, they will be kind/friendly/helpful/supportive towards all and everything according to one's ability, without discrimination of 'friends' or 'not friends', and there's no motivation/intention/expectation to be receiving something desirable/help/support/kindness/goodness/friendliness/friendships in return for being kind/friendly/helpful/supportive.

Those who don't know, there is fear. Fear of not getting what they want and fear of losing what they want or getting what they don't want. Fear of the unknown, nothingness, hardship, difficulty, boredom, loneliness, meaninglessness, helplessness, unloved, left-out, companionless, non-acknowledgement, and so on. There's is this idea or thinking - "I deserve this and that in return for my efforts/kindness/helpfulness/friendliness/generosity/contribution."

"I want to be good enough for myself and other people. I want to be able to accept myself being the way that I want myself to be, and I want other people to accept me being the way that they want me to be." But why do we think that we need to be good enough/be in certain ways in order to be accepted by ourselves, or other people, or the society, or the world? We don't have to.

Those who know the truth, who realized unconditional love and peace, being free from ignorance, egoism and impurities, or being free from attachment, identification, desire of craving and aversion, longing, judgment, comparison, expectation, boredom, loneliness, meaninglessness, depression, dissatisfaction, disappointment, unhappiness or suffering, they don't need to do something, or be someone, or have something, to make them feel good, happy, confident, meaningful, thankful or grateful. All their actions are pure actions being performed out of compassion and selflessness.

Be free.

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My husband and I run ongoing yoga retreats in Langkawi Malaysia. We teach traditional Hatha Yoga - a combination of Asanas (postures) and Pranayama (breathing techniques) and relaxation, that has given benefit to millions of practitioners over thousands of years. Our yoga studio is situated in Langkawi. We also run yoga retreats in Europe and India.

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